[COLOR="Purple"]HiYa Adzz,
I guess I kinda see this in a different light. Now, ya dont go into details about trying a relationship or about freaking out by the experience... so I could be totally wrong about this all but this is what I see.
Ya got issues with your homosexuality and your bud cant trust ya to get it together. Now that you may have lost your bud ya wanna try again. You bring up some distance issues but seems that ya been together in close proximity to know if ya got the fever for him or not. You say that you are worried about being rejected by him but it seems that you rejected him/a relationship at least three times.
I am sure that he has really serious feelings for you but he cant deal with your freaking out again. I dont think he can even be friends with ya as it will bring him back to you and he seems to really want to move on.
You are very young and need more experience in dealing with your own feelings and how to deal with another person as a mate.
Again, I could be totally out of line in all this and hope you dont take offense as it is just what I am reading into your posting.
Best of luck young man,
frank[/COLOR]
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If you like him that much give him a break and let him go. You've messed with his head and his heart enough. He's trying to deal with what happened (or didn't), so respect that and put it down to experience. Better luck next time.
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