A gay moment with my sexy straight friend

[morgan]

I have no idea what to say.

[Parparadox]

Oh boy. Was not planning to post a follow up to this story, but it looks like some of you guys are interested in a sequel, so I'll tell you what happened last night. Spoiler: it ain't good.

Kevin came by my place again yesterday night. As far as our friendship goes, it was by far the best hangout we've had - we had some snacks, drank some beers, smoked some pot and were in an overall great mood. He told me a lot of personal stuff which he claimed he's "never told anyone" about his rough childhood, depression, extreme OCD etc. I realized he's a lot more fucked up than I thought, but I appreciated his openness and hoped it would further my intentions. It's sleazy and cheap, I know, but all I could think about was getting him into bed. Don't get me wrong, I've got a lot of attractive friends, but he's the only one I'm genuinely attracted to.

At one point, he was going on about how open we are with each other, when he suddenly ran his hand all over my my thighs and hips, as if to demonstrate how unbound by social norms our relationship is. He then offered to return the favor from the other day and give me a massage, to which I predictably obliged.

So we went to my bed, I lay on my stomach and he immediately sat on top of me with his legs around my hips. However, he was restrained. He did not go under my shirt, rub my butt or press his junk against me as I did. After a while, he got off and sat next to me as I lay on my bed, my arm resting on his knee. He kept going on and telling me about his personal life, thoughts, feelings etc., and I was totally not in the mood for any of it. I was completely turned on and hard under the sheets, but I couldn't make myself make a definitive move (and oh am I glad I didn't). At one point he even looked at me, smiled and said "you are such a pretty guy", and then continued blabbering.

After a while, we both got really high from the weed and just lay next to each other on the bed. But at this point I just wanted him to leave. I was utterly tired of the sexual innuendo, teasing and hinting, and I felt absolutely nothing from him. He had about a billion chances and opportunities to make a move, but he was far removed. And then reality hit me like a bat to the head. Dude just wants to feel loved. He's not turned on by guys at the least, he is not interested in "exploring his sexuality" with me, he just wants someone to appreciate and acknowledge him, he wants a true friend who he can share all of his life's woes with, and feel completely open and free of judgement and criticism. I honestly felt like such a dumbass for not realizing it earlier.

After a while, I (rather bluntly) hinted that I'm tired and wanted to go to sleep, he picked up on the hint and left. And then I decided that I'm done with this back and forth, and that one of two things are going to happen - either we have sex, or our friendship is over. It may sound selfish, but the truth is that I can't be the friend he wants me to be, this relationship of ours is a total farce, at least as far as I'm concerned. So, heart beating, I did the unthinkable and sent him a text, saying if I were to experiment with a dude, he'd be the first guy I'd want to do it with. I didn't care that it wasn't the most elegant way to to about it, I just wanted to get this over with and conclude this saga. A few minutes later he replied, and oh was it the worst case scenario or what. I was so enraged by the reply that I deleted it immediately, but it was along the lines of "haha yeah I'll pass bro thanks", with an attachment of a guy in a vagina costume.

I hate to do this to him after all the trust he placed in me, but this "friendship" of ours is officially over. I'm not mad at him, but I'm just not interested in him as a friend anymore, and come to think of it, I'm not sure I ever was. He might get hurt, but he'll get over it. I know I did.

[Pcolakuntryboy]

You should have asked him to flip over so you could massage his front, then see if he also has a boner. If he does then you know where to take it from there.

[Darius]

Some guys want to play the game up to a certain point and feel confident in their straight sexuality as long as they don't finish the job. Where he will draw that line, no one knows.
I think you could choose one of two paths: either put the moves on him and become fully sexual with him, like suck his dick or stop playing his game and don't respond to his "gay moments" and see if he becomes more or less sexual with you.

I had a friend who was crazy about girls, but pretty shy about initiating with them. They often took the lead and he responded well to them. He's one of these quiet, brooding guys you know have a huge sex drive. I always felt he was as attracted to me as I was to him and when I told him I wasn't straight, he responded to anything I initiated. Sexually, he was pretty perfect. He had a dick that never stopped, precummed like crazy with very little stimulation and was passionate using his body, including foreplay and kissing. He would even tell me he loved me, but when the sex was over, he was guilt ridden until the next time he was horny. When the horniness was relieved, he would never talk about what we did together. I never, ever saw him show any interest in other guys, but every girl caught his eye. When he jacked off to porn, it was mostly straight, but some of it was gay or bi porn.
I think he knew what he liked, I just think he didn't like that he was not totally straight. I ended the sex with him because it was so frustrating that he was incapable of ever just fully being himself when it came to this part of his life. We are still great friends.

Sexuality is a complicated thing. This friend of yours might play this game with your forever or he might some day come aroun.

[Trennntt]

you have some great self control for sure lol. he's definitely a little curious

[MikeW]

...I hate to do this to him after all the trust he placed in me, but this "friendship" of ours is officially over. I'm not mad at him, but I'm just not interested in him as a friend anymore, and come to think of it, I'm not sure I ever was. He might get hurt, but he'll get over it. I know I did.

Wow. Just now happened to read your post from several days ago. A noob kicked the thread up or I would have missed it.

So... you're saying all you ever wanted was to get in his pants? The guy never really had any interest for you as a person? It's kind of despicable but, TBH, I've been there done that myself.

[ShiftyNJ]

you lost me at "straight-acting"

[seeking]

Wow. Just now happened to read your post from several days ago. A noob kicked the thread up or I would have missed it.

So... you're saying all you ever wanted was to get in his pants? The guy never really had any interest for you as a person? It's kind of despicable but, TBH, I've been there done that myself.

I guess it's because his post got hold up for moderation as he is new to the forum...I didn't see his post too.

From what I've read from the sequel, I guess parparadox means Kelvin did all these just want someone to listen to him and care for him truly, however, given his affection towards him, they will never been on an equal relationship (because they feel differently towards each other).

Also, after he did all that, I guess if I were paradox, I'd feel "being used" or "being manipulated" on my affection towards him (which means he is well-aware of that), then it surely feel more repelling. After all, who did all these to a friend just want to be listened?

I could be wrong on interpreting that, but anyway I wish op recover soon as well as finding your special someone.