I have homicidal urges

[MikeW]

You're an idiot so what else is new.

[himself]

You're an idiot so what else is new.

Who is? The OP?

[matty7]

so you want your five minutes of fame do you !!! killing people will make you fell better ? I just hope your full of shit - you do know you know you can have your sectioned ! if you think your a real danger to people then have your self committed

[MikeW]

Who is? The OP?

Yeah. Who else?

[Genersis]

How will you be standing up for yourself by committing such acts of violence?
All you'll mange to do is doom yourself to be dismissed as a nut-bar, people will respect as less than a person. like dirt.

You are right in that a notable number of people who commit such atrocities have depressing back stories. Normally living lives of isolation and plagued by feelings of impotence. With the atrocity being their means to gain some control; but in the end the act is the ultimate monument to their impotence in life.

Don't give up on getting help.
You will achieve nothing by turning to violence other than being forgotten to history.

[Darius]

Subdivision, in other threads you talked about your mental illnesses including being bi-polar. You even apologized for something you posted when you were in a bad place. This sounds like another such place. If typing it out helps you, then okay, but this is not good.