04-21-2016, 02:22 PM
So you remember this one friend I told you about when he left me after I asked him to lend me some money and never gave it to me...
SO I just let it drop and let go. We hung out sometimes but after that idk, I mean he acts normal and everything and it's like nothing is happening but it is just the fact that he is slowly pulling himself out of my life. Like he doesn't message me like he used to before.. He doesn't get back to me when I message him or call him and he is leaving on vacation soon and I am having the feeling that he might not contact me to say goodbye or whatever, but you never know.
and to be honest, I am still upset with him deep down but haven't confronted him about how I feel. We used to be close but idk what got into him and made him this way or maybe he has been like this all along and I just never seen it until time has revealed everything.
I don't think I trust him or rely on him anymore.. and I don't feel like he could be a good friend to me. Yes, he is really nice, a good listener and whatever but it is this dark thing about him that he is nice this minute but then he flips or switches the other minute. I mean, it is creepy sometimes. Another thing is that he puts himself before everything which makes sense but not to the point that if I had an emergency and I needed him and he was busy that he wouldn't be there for me. I feel like if we were both on a sinking ship, he would kick me off just so that he would survive instead of us both trying to figure out a solution together.
It does show that I care because I don't take it well when I am used to someone being this way to me and then changing without alerts or heads up.. It is just FUCKED UP.
I could tell him to fuck off, I just need him because I can practice my french with him. So I don't know.. What do you think? Take advantage of him (Even though it feels wrong) or just not talk to him anymore seeing I feel this way about him.
SO I just let it drop and let go. We hung out sometimes but after that idk, I mean he acts normal and everything and it's like nothing is happening but it is just the fact that he is slowly pulling himself out of my life. Like he doesn't message me like he used to before.. He doesn't get back to me when I message him or call him and he is leaving on vacation soon and I am having the feeling that he might not contact me to say goodbye or whatever, but you never know.
and to be honest, I am still upset with him deep down but haven't confronted him about how I feel. We used to be close but idk what got into him and made him this way or maybe he has been like this all along and I just never seen it until time has revealed everything.
I don't think I trust him or rely on him anymore.. and I don't feel like he could be a good friend to me. Yes, he is really nice, a good listener and whatever but it is this dark thing about him that he is nice this minute but then he flips or switches the other minute. I mean, it is creepy sometimes. Another thing is that he puts himself before everything which makes sense but not to the point that if I had an emergency and I needed him and he was busy that he wouldn't be there for me. I feel like if we were both on a sinking ship, he would kick me off just so that he would survive instead of us both trying to figure out a solution together.
It does show that I care because I don't take it well when I am used to someone being this way to me and then changing without alerts or heads up.. It is just FUCKED UP.
I could tell him to fuck off, I just need him because I can practice my french with him. So I don't know.. What do you think? Take advantage of him (Even though it feels wrong) or just not talk to him anymore seeing I feel this way about him.