First date, need advice - 20 yrs old

[CorsacReborn]

Maybe you should have texted the guy when you got home, it was only a small ask of him, He does sound a little impulsive but he didn't take advantage of you considering that you were both drinking and you had even had drinks before meeting him.

You don't know if you're going to be hurt by him, its only a preconceived idea that you have placed in your mind, whether its triggered by your anxiety I wouldn't be able to tell. Getting hurt is not something that only you will experience, people on this forum would have been hurt by someone and you will learn in time with your own coping mechanisms how to deal with and move on from being hurt.

[twentyidk]

I'm aware of page breaks, sorry about that though. Anyway to keep you update guys with my situation/story, I still haven't text him, maybe it's because I'm too proud to text him first or feel like he's the one to text me first as he's older than me.

I've never knew how it works in gay community, like who's the one to text first, call on a second date etc. because I've been only with girls and know how it works with them.

He started to post some instagram captions under his photos with song lyrics about some dark haired person, how it tricked him in love, how it doesn't love him back. Idk how to explain it but one part of me wants to believe it's about me, then on the other side I think who am I joking!? I'm not good enough. It's so weird, I almost texted him last night but then part of me went you will get hurt, don't be a fool.

As I stated before I'm sick of getting hurt over guys, in the past it was all one night stand with them, I even told him that when we first met, he was amused how open I was with him and that he thinks I know what I want in a relationship and that he likes that.