11-01-2010, 02:26 AM
I came out to my best friend, this guy. Now that I came out to him and he's decided to revive our friendship I think I'm slowly starting to like him again.
It's all been good. I told him about everything, my irrational insecurities about my relationship with him and he's been okay with it. Although I can't help but feel that he's just pretending and is only talking to me because he doesn't want to offend me but he's telling me not to think like that.![Rolleyes Rolleyes](https://gayspeak.com/images/smilies/rolleyes.png)
Anyways, when I came out to him I told him that I only found out about my "preference" a month ago. On Friday I confessed and told him that I knew all along and the only reason I lied was because I didn't want him to feel awkward, like maybe I was taking advantage of him thinking I was straight when we used to act gay for laughs in secondary school. I didn't want him to feel like I wasn't doing it for laughs. LOL
He told me okay and he asked me if I ever thought of him in "that way", I didn't know what to do so I lied again.
I told him I always thought of him as a friend. So he started asking why and started pouting. So I jokingly asked him if he wants me to like him and he replied with a smile, a "Maybe.", held my hand and was pulling me in. I panicked and pulled away and then a friend came up to us and we didn't speak for the rest of the day or even up until now actually.
I don't know what to do! Should I ask him about it? What if he was just teasing me? I hate this. :mad:
I can't stop thinking about this and I'm not sure if I even want this if he was serious about it. And then he has a girlfriend too!
Gosh. :frown:
It's all been good. I told him about everything, my irrational insecurities about my relationship with him and he's been okay with it. Although I can't help but feel that he's just pretending and is only talking to me because he doesn't want to offend me but he's telling me not to think like that.
![Rolleyes Rolleyes](https://gayspeak.com/images/smilies/rolleyes.png)
Anyways, when I came out to him I told him that I only found out about my "preference" a month ago. On Friday I confessed and told him that I knew all along and the only reason I lied was because I didn't want him to feel awkward, like maybe I was taking advantage of him thinking I was straight when we used to act gay for laughs in secondary school. I didn't want him to feel like I wasn't doing it for laughs. LOL
He told me okay and he asked me if I ever thought of him in "that way", I didn't know what to do so I lied again.
![Rolleyes Rolleyes](https://gayspeak.com/images/smilies/rolleyes.png)
I don't know what to do! Should I ask him about it? What if he was just teasing me? I hate this. :mad:
I can't stop thinking about this and I'm not sure if I even want this if he was serious about it. And then he has a girlfriend too!
Gosh. :frown: