Right how to explain where I am in my life after 3 years not being on this site.
So I’ve finished my degree in fine art and got an 2:2, which is okay, not brill but better than a 3rd lol.
I’ve moved into my first place with my little man (cat) at the beginning of the year.
I’m finding hard to explain what happened or didn’t happen while I was at uni.
Well I went uni like most other people thinking that they would find themselves, the only thing I found was how to cook a sir-fry and a good Sunday roast lol!
I thought I could try being straight as possible but I just confused people as they didn’t know where to be with me. I didn’t or still don’t know where to be with them as well. I can’t really explain what I mean sorry but all I can say is that I don’t really who I am or even when I think I know, I’m not happy with who I am. It’s makes me really hard to make friends with.
To make things worse I’m disability is getting worse so I don’t know if that isn’t help the matter. As I have lost friends because I’m to slow at walking and need help up if I fall over. I lost lovers too as they think I would get to tired..
I’m really finding it hard to explain my problems. The main thing I’m feeling is being alone.
I wanted to go out on Saturday night but I didn’t have anyone to go with witch made me feel really alone.
All I want is to cuddle up to someone; I’m not after anything sexual just to be close to someone would be nice.
God what do I need to do to be happy.
Well something else to add is that I meet a local girl who works in one of the pubs where I live and she seems interested in me but I’m not sure what to do, should I ask her out?
I think I’ve left it too late though…
My other problem is do I really like her other than just as a friend. I don’t think I do in a though.
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I totally understand what your going through, when i was really young i always felt alone and had few to no friends, but then i started working on things that I noticed I was doing wrong. I focused on becoming comical, studied comedians and their acts and how to formulate jokes and stuff, and then I found other people being drawn to me, they thought of me as hilarious and were finally accepting me. To this day as a grown man I always have a need to make people laugh and gain their acceptance through humour, its something thats stuck with me. In fact, I have met every one of my good friends initially based on my sense of humour and easyness to talk to.
If I can change myself, you can too, you just have to believe that you can. Find a defining trait and exploit it, and people will love you for it. I have a friend for years I met in college and just the other day he finally admitted to me that he was teased all his life, had no friends and every time he tried people would shun him down. He's my best friend and I dont know what I'd do without him. He still struggles and has such a hard time talking to people and is incredibly shy. He's told me before that I'm the best friend he's ever had and that because of me has gained so much more confidence in himself. I felt so great that I could do this for someone.
You might want to try helping someone else in a similar situation and you can find a connection to someone in that way. Even though my friend and I still struggle with our past, we have each other to talk things through and I know you can take my advice and do well and become happy.
Remember what you give out in the world is directly proportional to what you will receive, even if it doesnt seem to at first, just keep trying and you will see. Its what I did.
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Thats what I think I have found in this girl. I'm going to have a talk with her on friday evening.
I've done something I didnt think I cwould do I joined a dating site, and have started to two to three guys on there, and one of them I thinking of going on a date with. Maybe talking to this girl about it may help her out a little bit because I know she is finding it hard to date guys to..
Not sure what you think?
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So many people seem lost...and it honestly makes me sad...I think the world puts too much emphasis on if they are gay/str8/bi...can't we all just be who we are...?? people everywhere are torn...some say "you're going to hell cause you're gay"...some say "I'm PROUD, SO SO PROUD to be gay"...well, in all honesty, my road to hell or heaven will be because of the person I am, not because of my sexual preference...and I'm not PROUD to be gay...I'm proud of the PERSON that I am...because we would all be who we are...no matter if we have sex with men, women or farm animals...and to comment on your shy statement, well....I'm not the shy type, so that one's hard for me...just be yourself....I'm new here and just the name of your post brought me over here to you...so there must be something interesting about you...we ALL have something to offer the world...even if we can't see it...it sucks to be lonely...it drags us down and makes us think less of ourselves...when you're lonely...come here...we'll talk to you man!
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Your definitely on the right path dude. Its important to get out there. Even if you fail, like I have many times it makes for a great story lol. So yeah I usually always go into a situation, even if I think its gonna go badly I try and make the best of it and at least gain something. Just dont lose hope! And talking to that girl will work wonders, girls love to talk about that stuff! She'll be more than ears, and just keep her laughing along the way, she'll open up to you a lot more that way
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Trust me laughs a my at my worse jokes lol...
I'm just after a new friend and see where it takes me.
Oh I new thing I have noticed I cant seem to get it on with my own age. But I dont have probs with younger guys (17-29) and older guys (30+) Strange??
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lol it might be cause younger guys are insecure and older guys want to do a hot young guy lol, either way as long as your coming out with a good time what does it matter lol, but i get what you mean when you say you want someone your age, itll probably come easier when your a bit more comfortable with yourself
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lol I dont mind lol..
With youger guys for me its like awwwwww your really cute I just wanna hug you and with olders guys I want them to hug me, strange I know but hey I'm new at this thing really. lol xx
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I don't think that's strange at all, I definitely have wanted to both be the hugger and the huggee depending on the guy in which sometimes age is a factor with that  I am sorry to hear your disability, whatever it is, has worsened a bit, but there's plenty of guys who won't let that be a factor and yes you are on the right path of getting out there... good luck
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I can totally understand what you mean. I may be 16, but a couple of years before, i've always been the lonely type. The lone wolf, as others would call it. I remember how i would always want to go out, but would have no one to go out with. I still feel that way. But i've recently started coming out of my shell, and i realize that people started getting drawn to me because of my passion for singing and dance. I love making people laugh and smile. I have a best friend who helped me discover who i am, he's helped me through so much and i want to do the same to others. I actually have a crush on him still, even if he's str8.
Either way, i am sorry to hear that your disability has worsened a bit. But here's the thing, have faith and don;t lose hope. I know there has got to be someone who will not care about that or let it be a problem. You just gotta keep lookin.
p.s. best of wishes though, i hope you do find this someone.
stevie xxxxx
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