06-20-2011, 09:10 AM
After being absent for a few month in this forum I decided to come back.
I know I need help, but as someone who lives in a small town and has worked in the healthcare industry in that town, I know that there isn't much confidentiality for people. I work at a hospital and most of the medical staff know each other very likely that someone I know is most likely a patient, a relative, or a friend of whoever doctor I want to see.
I experience hypertension and panic attacks seem to be happening more regularly. I would experience shortness of breath, lowered body temperature and raised pulse. I know it's associated with work. I have thought of quitting a lot of time, but my position is administrative support. It's not something that's in high demand. I live with my mother and sister and a dog. My mother is on fixed social security income and my sister is currently unemployed. I make enough money that we can get by almost comfortably month after month. I have alienated a lot of friends over the years until I have so few of them, a lot became just acquaintances.
I have though about killing myself. Unfortunately, even though I have enough life insurance benefits that would be left for my sister and mom, life insurance does not cover suicide. My mom and sister are very supportive, but I don't think this is something they can handle right now. My sister is already depressed enough from being unemployed for almost a year, and my mother who is getting old is worried about not having money if something happens to her that would require long term care.
I have tried over the counter and home remedies to help with my hypertension. I tried garlic supplements to lower blood pressure, herbal teas, exercising more regularly - nothing has helped.
I am posting this because I expect more anonymity here and more support than I could get from a doctor. What should I do?
I know I need help, but as someone who lives in a small town and has worked in the healthcare industry in that town, I know that there isn't much confidentiality for people. I work at a hospital and most of the medical staff know each other very likely that someone I know is most likely a patient, a relative, or a friend of whoever doctor I want to see.
I experience hypertension and panic attacks seem to be happening more regularly. I would experience shortness of breath, lowered body temperature and raised pulse. I know it's associated with work. I have thought of quitting a lot of time, but my position is administrative support. It's not something that's in high demand. I live with my mother and sister and a dog. My mother is on fixed social security income and my sister is currently unemployed. I make enough money that we can get by almost comfortably month after month. I have alienated a lot of friends over the years until I have so few of them, a lot became just acquaintances.
I have though about killing myself. Unfortunately, even though I have enough life insurance benefits that would be left for my sister and mom, life insurance does not cover suicide. My mom and sister are very supportive, but I don't think this is something they can handle right now. My sister is already depressed enough from being unemployed for almost a year, and my mother who is getting old is worried about not having money if something happens to her that would require long term care.
I have tried over the counter and home remedies to help with my hypertension. I tried garlic supplements to lower blood pressure, herbal teas, exercising more regularly - nothing has helped.
I am posting this because I expect more anonymity here and more support than I could get from a doctor. What should I do?