I had a massage from a male friend with happy ending, I am getting very confused

[drewnyc7]

Hey there guys. So apart from loving gay porn, texting hot stuff to men, and having phone sex with men a few times thus leading me to the confusion I had a nice encounter a few days ago. Two older guys hit on me at work and gave me there card and number to go to there house for some business gathering, slash party. I decided to go and I got a little buzzed from drinking. One of the guys I met said to give me a massage so I couldn't resist. I was nervous I admit. He took me to his bedroom and told me to just chill and started joking around. I relaxed a little and he started giving me massage on my upper body. Man was it so good. He relaxed me so good, until he went towards my cock. He massaged it slowly teasing me for almost an hour, then he started jerking it hard and called me fag, slut, and I exploded and had a crazy orgasm. Since then he is waiting for me to go out with him and he will show me other things but I dont know, I am confused. I really want to but I am really getting confused on what is happening to me. Can you guys help?

[marshlander]

You seem to be on a path that is leading you increasingly to be with men. Something is driving you and it is probably more than idle curiosity. Mother Nature has a way of making us pay attention, specially when we have spent a long time ignoring her.

The question is really are you okay with falling into a pattern of random encounters with strangers or would you be more comfortable seeing if there was anything more substantial to a relationship than a fumble and a mind-blowing orgasm?

[princealbertofb]

Drew, are you fighting it? It sounds from the relaxation level you managed to obtain during the massage that your fears and worries are dissipating. Now there's also, as Marshlander said, all the social side to consider. You already know that the sex can be good and fun. What about being in a relationship with someone more permanently? How do you feel about that?

[jbrowder24]

Adding to the confusion may be how it happened. Some guys to get turned on by things like dirty talk and being yelled names, thought for most it's just like it'd be with any couple and more on the passion or love side. There's certainly nothing wrong if you did enjoy that, but if you didn't, then perhaps taking an alternative route as Marshlander suggested would be better? Sometimes when we want experience just to get experience and see what something is like, we end up going for the first opportunity even if it's not the right opportunity. Be careful.

You do definitely seem to be realizing and enjoying an attraction to men; as I've said on here before I do believe there are different levels of bisexuality while others can be in denial. It just depends on your attractions, but there is nothing wrong with exploring and realizing whatever your sexuality is, it's part of your nature.

[Gabbyboy]

I am confused. I really want to but I am really getting confused on what is happening to me. Can you guys help?

i know its hard to realize your own sexuality, but i think your Gay and you should celebrate.

[drewnyc7]

i know its hard to realize your own sexuality, but i think your Gay and you should celebrate.

Hey gabbyboy. U really think so?? I think so to, I would love celebrating lol.. All I watch is gay porn now, harder the better. but now at 31, why now?? and raging hormones.. i really have been getting horny for dick lately.

[drewnyc7]

Adding to the confusion may be how it happened. Some guys to get turned on by things like dirty talk and being yelled names, thought for most it's just like it'd be with any couple and more on the passion or love side. There's certainly nothing wrong if you did enjoy that, but if you didn't, then perhaps taking an alternative route as Marshlander suggested would be better? Sometimes when we want experience just to get experience and see what something is like, we end up going for the first opportunity even if it's not the right opportunity. Be careful.

You do definitely seem to be realizing and enjoying an attraction to men; as I've said on here before I do believe there are different levels of bisexuality while others can be in denial. It just depends on your attractions, but there is nothing wrong with exploring and realizing whatever your sexuality is, it's part of your nature.

what do u have in mind??lately dick is all i think about. gay porn is all i want. why now at 31??

[drewnyc7]

Drew, are you fighting it? It sounds from the relaxation level you managed to obtain during the massage that your fears and worries are dissipating. Now there's also, as Marshlander said, all the social side to consider. You already know that the sex can be good and fun. What about being in a relationship with someone more permanently? How do you feel about that?

actually i want to try it, but how do i meet, where do i meet?? and i just want to have sex and see what i feel.. i am so horny for dick lately, raging horny.. i watch such hardcore porn, and the more i see dick the more i want to suck it.. have it

[drewnyc7]

You seem to be on a path that is leading you increasingly to be with men. Something is driving you and it is probably more than idle curiosity. Mother Nature has a way of making us pay attention, specially when we have spent a long time ignoring her.

The question is really are you okay with falling into a pattern of random encounters with strangers or would you be more comfortable seeing if there was anything more substantial to a relationship than a fumble and a mind-blowing orgasm?

what do u mean? i am desiring more and more by the day to be with men. i feel like i am meant to please cock and to be pleased by it. its a sensation that i really find amazing.. i have fought my desire for years, the more i fight it the more i want it, crave it. i want to have relationship with men, see how it is, feels. the word gay turns me on, the thought of cock drives me crazy, i want to just admit that i am gay and start enjoying it

[posterpicture]

oh boy.. i mean man. You are in the curious stage, one of the most horny stage a gay guy can go through. You like a kid (big kid) just finds out there is a candy store next to his house and wants to eat them all. If you want cock then go for it. I am sure NY has a lot to offer you.