09-20-2011, 06:51 PM
last year i started my first year of college. i wanted to see what i thought i was missing out on, i have always taken great pride in my intellect and have never backed down from a challenge. however i have always hated the academic system, even though i have insatiable hunger for knowledge. it has always been much easier for me educate myself, even in very complex subjects such as phenomenology, and physics. i am no dilettante, i really have developed a sophisticated understanding of the world around me.
i am on the cusp of starting my third semester, because i have recently moved, i opted for online courses. the issue at hand is, i dont think it is worth it to spend a fortune on an education i am not sure if i will even be able to use. my focus in school is in fine arts, when i started college i had already been working as a freelance artist for about six years, and i wasnt doing bad at it all. currently i am working as a creative assistant, and i have my room and board more than amply taken care of.
i am thinking about dropping out of college, because it doesnt seem to have anything to offer but years of struggle trying to pay back the stupid loans i had to take out to pay for my first two semesters. i cant bring myself to feel motivated to continue with the academic process, especially sense i am embedded in my own projects, which exceed the scope of anything assigned in a class room setting. i find i am at a lose as to what to do. i kind of just want to fall off the grid.
in some ways it feels like a shame, because if i REALLY cared, if i enjoyed being in school, if i could bring myself to kiss ass, and humor my professors, i could do incredibly well in college. i have 3.5 GPA, and i got it without even trying, so i could probably get scholarships if i wanted to get them. its just i dont. i want nothing to do with the system at all. i hate the idea of working for a corporation, and i have no desire to be an educator, so i see no purpose of being there even if i can do well.
i know the american education system is just a money making machine, many of the professors are cynical and jaded with their careers. they care about the bottom line not the true expansion of minds and the exploration of ideas. it doesnt feel like they are preparing anyone for the challenges of tomorrow, they are just finding out who can is going to be a good "Yes Man" brown nose-er.
no offense to those of you who have completed college, i just dont think it is for me. i never have. its a bitter pill to swallow the cost of "education is". i know only i can decide what is best for me, but i would appreciate any insights or advice that could be offered.
i am on the cusp of starting my third semester, because i have recently moved, i opted for online courses. the issue at hand is, i dont think it is worth it to spend a fortune on an education i am not sure if i will even be able to use. my focus in school is in fine arts, when i started college i had already been working as a freelance artist for about six years, and i wasnt doing bad at it all. currently i am working as a creative assistant, and i have my room and board more than amply taken care of.
i am thinking about dropping out of college, because it doesnt seem to have anything to offer but years of struggle trying to pay back the stupid loans i had to take out to pay for my first two semesters. i cant bring myself to feel motivated to continue with the academic process, especially sense i am embedded in my own projects, which exceed the scope of anything assigned in a class room setting. i find i am at a lose as to what to do. i kind of just want to fall off the grid.
in some ways it feels like a shame, because if i REALLY cared, if i enjoyed being in school, if i could bring myself to kiss ass, and humor my professors, i could do incredibly well in college. i have 3.5 GPA, and i got it without even trying, so i could probably get scholarships if i wanted to get them. its just i dont. i want nothing to do with the system at all. i hate the idea of working for a corporation, and i have no desire to be an educator, so i see no purpose of being there even if i can do well.
i know the american education system is just a money making machine, many of the professors are cynical and jaded with their careers. they care about the bottom line not the true expansion of minds and the exploration of ideas. it doesnt feel like they are preparing anyone for the challenges of tomorrow, they are just finding out who can is going to be a good "Yes Man" brown nose-er.
no offense to those of you who have completed college, i just dont think it is for me. i never have. its a bitter pill to swallow the cost of "education is". i know only i can decide what is best for me, but i would appreciate any insights or advice that could be offered.