01-03-2012, 11:16 PM
I'm new on this forums, and I think that it's a crappy start to brag, but I really need someone right now. I'm sorry.
I feel nostalgic and I miss the good, old times. I'm living old memories, instead of living what I have today. That's how I wasted last 2 or 3 years of my life. I somehow made it through highschool, and I even got into medical school, but there's one thing bothering me - how can I live the present, if I constantly think about how great it was before.
I think that it may be caused by the fact that back then I didn't have so many problems. Now it's study, loneliness. I have lots of friends, but I still feel lonely because I'm out only to some good friends (recently moved to another city), and we lost contact. In my old city I was building a "safety zone" while I was depressed for almost 3 years, before I managed to say it - I'm gay. Here where I currently live, I don't know many people very well, I'm too scared to come out here.
Things were much easier before.
I'll be 20 this year... and the last thing I want is to feel somewhere around 2050 that I wasted the best times of my life.
I feel nostalgic and I miss the good, old times. I'm living old memories, instead of living what I have today. That's how I wasted last 2 or 3 years of my life. I somehow made it through highschool, and I even got into medical school, but there's one thing bothering me - how can I live the present, if I constantly think about how great it was before.
I think that it may be caused by the fact that back then I didn't have so many problems. Now it's study, loneliness. I have lots of friends, but I still feel lonely because I'm out only to some good friends (recently moved to another city), and we lost contact. In my old city I was building a "safety zone" while I was depressed for almost 3 years, before I managed to say it - I'm gay. Here where I currently live, I don't know many people very well, I'm too scared to come out here.
Things were much easier before.
I'll be 20 this year... and the last thing I want is to feel somewhere around 2050 that I wasted the best times of my life.