06-10-2012, 05:28 AM
Iâll just get straight to the facts:
I met this young man just over a year ago.
Weâve been inseparable since then.
We talk/text every day.
We tell each other we love each other every day.
Heâs very very gay and I get that, but he KNOWS Iâm in love with him, and still calls me constantly, telling me he needs to see me, etc.. He always starts phone calls with, âwhom are you with? Are you cheating on me? You like himâ¦more than you like me.â Things like that.
Weâve never come out and said it, but he does indeed know that Iâve fallen in love with him. He tries to get me to admit this, but I just drop my eyes and pout and look the other way, or try to walk away, but heâll pull on my sweater and hold me close. Iâll grab him and pull him close, breathing into his neck, then push him away. âget over yourselfâ, I say, finally breaking away from him. His gaze follows me, both of us knowing the truth, but not coming out to discuss it. Heâs very sensitive and wonât come out and say âI love you too, but not that wayââ¦or what ever could be in his mind. Who knows at this point?
When I first met him, he dressed very gay, etc., but now, heâs extremely masculine in his dress and manner. We spend almost every waking moment together, sleeping in my bed, cuddling, etc. We kiss on the lips, and when weâre tipsy, heâs very touch feely. He likes my D cups, but says theyâre âjust toysâ and doesnât see them as a sexual object. He picks out my clothes and had me buy dark red lipstick which I only wear when weâre together. I wear the perfume he likes, and he wears what I like. When we go on trips apart from each other, we each carry a swatch of the otherâs scent. When weâre together, he constantly talks about other guys, chats, etc., but recently got rid of all his âgayâ apps, stating that itâs because he likes this guy and heâs giving it up for him, but this guy isnât even into him, and when my bff comes over or calls after hanging out with this new guy, he says he feels very âunfulfilled.â. ??
Since Iâve known him, heâs had one boyfriend â needless to say, I didnât care for him, but always put on a brave face, although my bff would lovingly look down at me and gently ask me to be nice, but he loved that I was insanely jealous, to which I would never admit, but my bff would always just nod and say âmmmhmmmâ. After 7 months, my bff broke up with him. I was relieved of course, but also sad that it apparently made my bff sad as well, although it was his idea. To this day, he still wonât say exactly why they broke up.
He knows Iâve only had sex with one person my entire life. He says and does things to embarrass me; but itâs usually all in good fun. He recently told me that he plans on having sex with a woman over the summer âto experimentâ, he says. âPlease promise me one thing,â I asked. "I donât want to know who it is or when it happens â ok?â Ok, he said, laughing.
Now Iâm quite older than him. Everywhere we go, people stare at us, as weâre very affectionate in public and make a joke about âmaking people think dirty things about usâ lol. I would never try to âseduceâ a gay man (thatâs just disrespectful and sick in my opinion). Every time EVERY TIME I try to pull away, he pulls me close and will text me things that make me believe he truly is IN MY HEAD. Itâs very strange, this connection we have. I know many women fall in love with their gay bffâs â I get it. But Iâm in this forum to try to find out more about how the gay mind works.
Help! What do I do? Pull away? Is he confused? Sigh.
I met this young man just over a year ago.
Weâve been inseparable since then.
We talk/text every day.
We tell each other we love each other every day.
Heâs very very gay and I get that, but he KNOWS Iâm in love with him, and still calls me constantly, telling me he needs to see me, etc.. He always starts phone calls with, âwhom are you with? Are you cheating on me? You like himâ¦more than you like me.â Things like that.
Weâve never come out and said it, but he does indeed know that Iâve fallen in love with him. He tries to get me to admit this, but I just drop my eyes and pout and look the other way, or try to walk away, but heâll pull on my sweater and hold me close. Iâll grab him and pull him close, breathing into his neck, then push him away. âget over yourselfâ, I say, finally breaking away from him. His gaze follows me, both of us knowing the truth, but not coming out to discuss it. Heâs very sensitive and wonât come out and say âI love you too, but not that wayââ¦or what ever could be in his mind. Who knows at this point?
When I first met him, he dressed very gay, etc., but now, heâs extremely masculine in his dress and manner. We spend almost every waking moment together, sleeping in my bed, cuddling, etc. We kiss on the lips, and when weâre tipsy, heâs very touch feely. He likes my D cups, but says theyâre âjust toysâ and doesnât see them as a sexual object. He picks out my clothes and had me buy dark red lipstick which I only wear when weâre together. I wear the perfume he likes, and he wears what I like. When we go on trips apart from each other, we each carry a swatch of the otherâs scent. When weâre together, he constantly talks about other guys, chats, etc., but recently got rid of all his âgayâ apps, stating that itâs because he likes this guy and heâs giving it up for him, but this guy isnât even into him, and when my bff comes over or calls after hanging out with this new guy, he says he feels very âunfulfilled.â. ??
Since Iâve known him, heâs had one boyfriend â needless to say, I didnât care for him, but always put on a brave face, although my bff would lovingly look down at me and gently ask me to be nice, but he loved that I was insanely jealous, to which I would never admit, but my bff would always just nod and say âmmmhmmmâ. After 7 months, my bff broke up with him. I was relieved of course, but also sad that it apparently made my bff sad as well, although it was his idea. To this day, he still wonât say exactly why they broke up.
He knows Iâve only had sex with one person my entire life. He says and does things to embarrass me; but itâs usually all in good fun. He recently told me that he plans on having sex with a woman over the summer âto experimentâ, he says. âPlease promise me one thing,â I asked. "I donât want to know who it is or when it happens â ok?â Ok, he said, laughing.
Now Iâm quite older than him. Everywhere we go, people stare at us, as weâre very affectionate in public and make a joke about âmaking people think dirty things about usâ lol. I would never try to âseduceâ a gay man (thatâs just disrespectful and sick in my opinion). Every time EVERY TIME I try to pull away, he pulls me close and will text me things that make me believe he truly is IN MY HEAD. Itâs very strange, this connection we have. I know many women fall in love with their gay bffâs â I get it. But Iâm in this forum to try to find out more about how the gay mind works.
Help! What do I do? Pull away? Is he confused? Sigh.