Really unhappy...like someone that i should not like

[behrens2001]

So nobody that lives with you knows your gay? The only people that talk to you about it is us?

Really the reason i lived this girl isn't because she is a beauty queen, she was convenient, i had never had a real friend of the opposite sex before. She was quite tomboyish and very sweet. I started wanting her because she knew me and accepted me she liked me very much the same way I liked her. Up to that point i had only ever had sexual thoughts toward male people.

But like any flame it will burn out. It just wasn't possible. It hurt for some time, seeing her meant secret pain only short lived. And a current friendship that is very valuable to me.

Yeah not even people who live with me. Nobody in this entire world knows im gay except for u guys. And yes, ur the only people im talking to. And i value this so much as you can imagine. Im a mess