Relationships pahh!

[pellaz]

I am going to take a different approach.
everyone is different and some of us are made to be in a relationship. If you are one of these; ignore those who seem to think you need to be single for a while. Obvious you are capable to love your self and others since your were in a successful relationship for many years.

finding another relationship is difficult. If this is what you want dont give up, keep trying. You seem to have good standards in place and can take action if things are sub optimal. If this is what you want to do make it happen but be patient.

I found out I was gay at 12, when my best friend kissed me... we went through all the confusing stuff together, and were incredibly close, and at 16 we moved in together.. everything was great for years.. but eventually we grew apart, and at 27, we split up. ... I guess I'm just trying to talk myself out of taking my ex back ...

talk to your X and see if he feels the same way? If you havnt already, try to get some gay couples training, start with a low cost group sessions first. Dont let your pride get in the way, again be patient but make it happen. I say this because in any relationship, given enough time, the boys will grow apart. Your love is trying to hit a moving target no? Who is to say this same thing will happen in your next relationship?

Sounds like you have tons of skills and know what you are doing, just evaluate things, be patient and make it happen.