How are you today?

[southbiochem]

I'm feeling a little depressed today. Me and the bf had Christmas dinner with my parents. It was fine until we were leaving and my mother tried to get me to take a book. It was about someone who was freed from their being a lesbian. My mom still thinks I am sick or under satanic influence. I told her I really didn't appreciate the gesture. She told me to take it even if I didn't read it to just keep is somewhere at home just in case I changed my mind. I wound up telling my mother I loved her but left the book behind.

I don't expect her to condone my relationship but she does have to accept it. Forcing me back in the closet as I'm sure was the basis of the book is not helping me to be close to my parents.

Oh, yes, yes, I see her point....you sodomite....burn in hell you sinner......*MAJOR EYE ROLLING*

yeah, OK, anyway...until she comes arround nothing but love at the distance for her..

after all you have a guy and only have to endure this kind of crap on Holidays..you'll get used to it and come not to care eventually..

so....today, today....last night I had a dream where everyone I knew hated me....today I woke up and remembered that's almost entirely true...which was a good kick start for my own loathing-the-world policy, and since xmas has passed I don't even have to pretend I feel guilty about it..it's a good day, people