So deeply confused

[princealbertofb]

You're right, Hank, it won't just disappear all of a sudden. You have a little work to do in accepting yourself still. Once you've realised that you're OK, you'll give yourself the right to fall in love and to be loved by someone else.
It seems, however, that if you want to have a family and children etc, you'd better be on the lookout for a man who's also looking forward to rearing a family.