So deeply confused

[Blue]

The first step to getting past that fear is to be okay with you, to like yourself as your favorite companion, to be able to be alone without feeling lonely.

No that doesn't mean be prideful, arrogant or conceited, that just means be honest with yourself and stop being your own worst critic and enemy. Treat yourself and look at yourself as you look at others. Acknowledge the faults and, embrace, and enjoy the positives.

Once you can do that, being alone is a lot easier, and, yes rejection still hurts, but you know form the moment it happens that you will be okay, and you don't let it destroy your self worth because that is personal, and individual to you. You know you have a few faults and things you need to improve about yourself, but you also know that over all, you're a pretty cool guy and, it's they who have lost the most in rejecting you.

Like any of us, you'll spend a little while blaming them entirely, then yourself entirely, then just shifting into neutral for a bit, then one heck of a storm sorting it out and getting it all into perspective, but through it all you know who you are and what is good about you, why you like yourself and, you know that you will be okay no matter what this world throws at you.