is he cheating on me???

[lazyboy]

thanks everyone for replying. I realise that I am focusing on things that could be more so than things that actually are and it's a very unwise move. The guy who I did the spying on has not contacted me in about a week now. I am guessing it is mostly because of my spying even though he said in im on skype that it is fine and that he still loves me and that he knows i'm just insecure. The main reason I was insecure is because I don't think his treatment of me is fair sometimes I suppose. When he talks about his exes, he describes them as good looking, gorgeous etc. He also will point out 'gorgeuous' guys to me on grindr or gaydar and while he hardly ever says anything positive about me. To get a compliment from his is rare. I don't feel like I measure up to these guys and hence some of the insecurity although he occasionally compliments me when he knows I am quite upset about this. I know I did him wrong and so I think it's time to break apart from him both for me and for him. The other reason is like I've already mentioned; I feel like he is only settling for me and hence don't trust him as when a hotter looking younger guy comes around he's' likely to go for them anyway. So I don't think this relationship is healthy with his behaviour and mine too of course.