Really unhappy...like someone that i should not like

[behrens2001]

funny enough i used to long after my best friend when we were growing up and he was straight too, it gets really hard and you start to make passes even though you know you shouldnt.

My only advice is, get a gay friend, find someone you can talk to, have open heart to hearts with, it will ease the unhappy-ness. Thats how i handled it

Thanks for your advice. I would really want to talk to someone. But im still in the closet and no one knows im gay..so..yeah....my life is pretty miserable, haha