Would you try to start a relationship with this guy?

[mattp]

but I cannot for the life of me imagine a relationship...but I am not really "special" in that way....you have to ask yourself if you are.

He holds down a full-time job, as a tv researcher, but obviously his illness could worsen a lot. I'm not a selfish person; but I'm not selfless either- just average. I will think about what you've said. I don't want to damage our friendship, so it might be better to stay as just friends...