How are you today?

[Nick9]

I'm sorry :frown:
With him I tend to do that a lot only because it's hard to resolve thigns with him. I know it sucks to be on the receiving end, But I just can't bring myself to talk to him about it. In my case, I know that the outcome will turn out to be him saying "oh, I understand" and then a subject change rather than an "i'm sorry" or "wanna talk about it" and then I'll give in.

Matty you don't make it easy for him. I think you should tell him and also tell him what you need from him. He can't read your mind. You will be apart for a quite long time, you can't wait till you get back to have this talk. I am afraid you keep changing your view of your former friendship according to your current mood. Sometimes you talk very nicely about him, and sometimes you are mad at him. It's okay. But I doubt that he understands.
I think you should talk to him or write him