01-22-2014, 01:24 AM
I really do not deal with break ups well.
I believe I have love addiction (or the idea of love addiction)
I also feel like there is a bit of two sides of me in my brain right now. One part of me wants to survive, move on and learn from this break up.
Another side of me wants to keep it alive for as long as possible, in my mind, while trying to reach out to my ex.
It is such a bad cycle, and guess which side overcomes the other? That is right, not the good side.
I have anxiety everyday, shortness of breath, any task seems like a lot to take in, whether it be responsibilities at work, to doing the freggen laundry at home. I avoid certain social situations now because my anxiety goes through the roof sometimes to the point where I feel I cannot breathe.
I also had an anxiety attack at work last week which landed me in the hospital for the 4th time in under a year. It feels like this anxiety is a part of me now along with the non stop obsessives thoughts of my ex. Its been 8 months now and I ve had some ups and downs, but this is the worst I have felt throughout the whole situation.
It seems like 9 out of 10 time, the bad side wins over the good side of the brain, and I spiral down hill.
I find it hard to concentrate at work because of my anxiety. I find it hard to do any tasks at home because of my depression. It is a real horrible mix.
I want to try and fix it without medication, but it is really hard. I need to change my lifestyle to eat healthier and sleep healthier, but that is easier said then done.
I really do not know what to do and how to move forward.
I am caught in a cycle where I text my e-mail my ex constantly to lower my anxiety, then I try to stop thinking about him which makes my anxiety go off. It is so tough and I do not know how to fix it.
On top of that I feel absolutely horrible for dragging my ex into this, interupting his day sometimes, and being a crazy person.
Although, I have done a lot of reading about it on the internet which suggests my anxiety attacks and the way I have reacted is not uncommon because it is like trying to get off a drug, and sometimes it feels like I message my ex just to get my fix. It is really weird.
I just do not know what to do at this point, I feel like a real change is needed in my life but I have no idea how to do it. I do not know if I have the self esteem to make the change.
Has anyone had similar experiences ? How did you deal with it ? Does medication actually work or does it just lessen your symptoms?
I believe I have love addiction (or the idea of love addiction)
I also feel like there is a bit of two sides of me in my brain right now. One part of me wants to survive, move on and learn from this break up.
Another side of me wants to keep it alive for as long as possible, in my mind, while trying to reach out to my ex.
It is such a bad cycle, and guess which side overcomes the other? That is right, not the good side.
I have anxiety everyday, shortness of breath, any task seems like a lot to take in, whether it be responsibilities at work, to doing the freggen laundry at home. I avoid certain social situations now because my anxiety goes through the roof sometimes to the point where I feel I cannot breathe.
I also had an anxiety attack at work last week which landed me in the hospital for the 4th time in under a year. It feels like this anxiety is a part of me now along with the non stop obsessives thoughts of my ex. Its been 8 months now and I ve had some ups and downs, but this is the worst I have felt throughout the whole situation.
It seems like 9 out of 10 time, the bad side wins over the good side of the brain, and I spiral down hill.
I find it hard to concentrate at work because of my anxiety. I find it hard to do any tasks at home because of my depression. It is a real horrible mix.
I want to try and fix it without medication, but it is really hard. I need to change my lifestyle to eat healthier and sleep healthier, but that is easier said then done.
I really do not know what to do and how to move forward.
I am caught in a cycle where I text my e-mail my ex constantly to lower my anxiety, then I try to stop thinking about him which makes my anxiety go off. It is so tough and I do not know how to fix it.
On top of that I feel absolutely horrible for dragging my ex into this, interupting his day sometimes, and being a crazy person.
Although, I have done a lot of reading about it on the internet which suggests my anxiety attacks and the way I have reacted is not uncommon because it is like trying to get off a drug, and sometimes it feels like I message my ex just to get my fix. It is really weird.
I just do not know what to do at this point, I feel like a real change is needed in my life but I have no idea how to do it. I do not know if I have the self esteem to make the change.
Has anyone had similar experiences ? How did you deal with it ? Does medication actually work or does it just lessen your symptoms?
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