Not quite sexual guy, I guess..

[Cuddly]

"Aren't you attracted to your boyfriend? Don't you feel the desire to put your hands on him? Or your lips? Asexuality exists too."

I don't know what you mean by being attracted. I like him a lot, he's very cute and we're having great time together, but if you mean the necessity to touch him in all means, then probably no, I don't feel such desire. I mean, it feels great to hug and feel his warmth but when I think about something more, I'm not sure if I want it. Probably it's also because I'm inexperienced in sexual things, it scares me as it's so unfamiliar to me.

Maybe I'm just not ready to have sex? If I would be ready, I probably wouldn't have any doubt and all these questions.

We haven't talked about sex. He's not trying to force me, however when we're together he touches me a lot more than I touch him, but also nothing special, just cuddling, snuggling.

I hate doctors and everything that's connected with medicine. I've had a bad experience when I was a child.

I'm studying pharmacy (the creation of medicine and how it works) starting 3rd year in a week and I can understand why you would hate it or be afraid of it. It's a scary concept k? I had a psychological barrier that simply prevented me from swallowing pills, until I started studying it. Medicine is supposed to help and most often does, but the body is complicated and every body is different, meaning the medicine also works differently in each individual. It's complicated stuff.
- hating doctors is just mean!

What I mean is, don't you (ever) fantasise about grabbing his naked ass cheek? Or bite it? Or suck on his nipple? Or suck on something else? Or be sucked somewhere else by him? Or having him bite your ass cheek? Are those thoughts completely alien to you?
(Don't be shy, you're anonymous and frankly, even if you weren't, nobody would think twice about a discussion of sexuality or lack there of on a gay forum! We're here to help to the best of our abilities, but we need information to give our suggestions/views/help)

I'm more or less your polar opposite. I need constant distraction in order to keep a lid on my sexual drive. I am noticing a difference as I'm growing older though (meaning from when I was 18 to 25, I've noticed a huge change in how uncontrollable my desire is - the long-term monogamous husbear relationship probably helps alot!)
I definately needed to get off once a day, since I was 14 or so. Now.. not so much.

Every relationship is different, but personally I couldn't be in a passionless (aka sexless) relationship. I'm not 18 though and I'm not you. You need what you need and I wish you the best.