Please give me your insights on my relationship (long post)

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Thank you for sharing your story. I read through every single word of it and feel very emotional about that. Feel like, every single of us has a complicated life of our own. If I collect all of that stories and make in to a movie, I would be a millionaire lol

First of all, I don't know what to advise you about Matt. My head tells me that you should not end everything with him. Trust is something very important in any form of relationship. Without trust, everything is just to fragile and obviously, in your situation, he does not trust you and you don't trust him enough to share your life. You will very likely to get hurt in the end.
However, my heart tells me that you should be with him, risk it. In every single life, there will be only one Mr. Right, if we don't risk, we may let him walk away and be regret to the rest of our life. I feel like you love him a lot, and I think he loves you too. Just stay with him, love him more, and time will answer all of your questions. You can not force anyone tells you " I love you", but one day when he finds out that you deserve it, he does more for you than just saying it.

Whatever the result is, in the end you will not regret because you have tried. If it does not work, then he is just not your Mr. Right and he does not deserve you. But I hope it will be ok in the end.

I wish you luck.