10-26-2010, 04:55 AM
Sil, you may need to see a counsellor to talk about these feelings and about what happened to you when you were attacked. It's obviously left some psychological scars that, maybe, you feel you can treat with the herb... but it's not ultimately very healthy, as Rychard pointed out. Without wanting to sound patronising, what exactly is the point of going out to the gym to make yourself a better looking body if you're going to 'ruin' the brain that runs it?