So I'm thinking about my virginity...

[DarkDaisuke]

A lot can happen in six hours.
I just talked to one of my friends who was giving me way too much information about his sex life and I just wondered how he could see sex as something so casual, so I ended up doing some thinking/reflection.

I haven't made up my mind on my position yet. ~_~
LOL! Con! You're unbelievable! :p



I don't wanna have sex as much as possible or be a slut, I just want to... well, I don't know. Stop seeing sex as such a big deal? Am I really giving in to the masses? >_>

I know there is more to being gay and being in a relationship than sex, trust me. Unfortunately, I'm one of the few who think so... at least at my age. I just don't know why I'm thinking like that, it just seems unnecessary to think so. I feel like I'm being delusional, I'll most likely never have a normal lifestyle if I stay where I'm at now (sadly, I'll most likely stay here for the majority of my life) so why "wait"? Wait on what? I want to meet someone and get into a serious, monogamous, long-term relationship but I doubt that'll ever happen because everyone who I know that's gay around me is just interested in sex, last night just solidified that for me. Even when I'm being friendly, kind and accepting. I don't even have high standards or anything; I love people for them, they don't need to try to work hard to impress me or anything but why be so honest and romantic if all we're gonna do is have sex? Ah, I think if I think too much about this I'll just end up deciding to become a slut. >_<



And now I read your post.
I wanna tell you that you're just meeting the wrong guys and that you shouldn't let a few guys represent the mindset of the entire gay community but... I'm doing the same thing. I'm being such a hypocrite. I don't want to wait till I'm 35 though, why can't I find someone who thinks like me that's around my age? ;__;

Gosh... I need to do some more thinking. >_>

I'm not all about sex but I do want to find a boyfriend and lose my virginity <_< thats just me I want the experience and to be done with it. More than anything, I want a boyfriend lol Sex might be a part of the relationship; we're young still, but I hope whoever he is is also able to communicate with me on another level lol
So yeah not all young gay guys are after sex lol