lonely :(

[Marvinteck]

Through the week I am happy in my job - I love my job and feel productive and satisfied with life. However when it comes to weekends all this goes. I spend my time stuck to the PC screen feeling lonely, trying to make connections with gay people from the internet *sigh*. I am reminded that my 2 best friends live in other countries; the few friends that live near me are not really emotionally close enough for me to PROPERLY talk to; I am too cautious about going out at weekend evenings and I have not been out for ages. I don't feel like I really have anyone besides my mum. :frown:

Furthermore, I've been single for ages and I do not want to be anymore and would at least like some gay friends (real human ones).

I can identify with allot of what you write. Im very alone as well. I was just telling my mother today I feel like failure in life. I really dislike the fact I have no close friends and have been single for all of my adult life. I am not very happy with my job. I have social phobia so bad that im online 24/7 if im not working or sleeping.

You definitly arent alone in your struggles to connect with other people outside of cyberspace. You might try to volunteer your time to help people less fortunate then you and meet new people at the same time. Also you could get active in causes like gay rights to meet like minded folks like yourself. I really wish I could crawl through this computer screen and be with you so both of us wouldnt be so lonely.