Social outcast

[juk]

Im an social outcast and always have been. There is no two ways about it when I say Im definitely introverted. I suffer from social phobia and selective mutism . I enjoy the solitude of being by myself some days but feel very very alone on other days. I dont feel like I really fit into society. I have very few if any good friends outside of cyberspace. I have never been in a relationship (serious or casual for that matter). Dating and finding somebody to spend the rest of my life with seem to be pipe dreams that are out of my reach at this point. Im very prone to feeling depressed and lonely. In the past I have thought about ending my life because I hurt so much on the inside from being such an outcast from society. I can speak freely online and socialize with people. The one thing I long for the most is human touch. Talking to people online isnt the same as having an heart to heart in person with them. There is almost nothing I would not give for the opportunity of cuddling and snuggling up to a person. I just want to love and be loved. Can any of my fellow LGBT's relate or am I just the exception to the rule?

Hey Marvinteck, what you describe is something that a lot of people feel every day. I have, at various times, felt some or all of the feelings you have described. When you feel down those things you long for always seem so far out of reach that hope seems pointless.

Maybe you can take small steps that are a little out of your comfort zone? In order to make some changes you have to face things that will make you uncomfortable, thats why small steps are important. The ultimate aim of course would be to reach a stage where you can date, and can have the things you so far only dream of - but for now put those dreams aside and do something each day that challenges you a little.

If you want to chat more about this in private chat you are more than welcome, I cant promise to understand everything nor can I promise I know how to move forward, but I can talk to you about what I have seen to help people and you can work out what your own plan will be.

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