Advice on my 7 year Relationship Ending.

[bostongoodtimes]

I guess my problem is I feel like I invested a lot into this relationship. 7 years is a long long time. We know each other inside and out. So I don;t want to just throw it away if hes just going through his own personal turmoil. I know he had a bad life. I know hes got issues. We've talked about them, and he is aware of his own demons.

Theres that part of me that gets very angry, thinking 'how could my boyfriend of 7 years dump me (or consider an open relationship) for a guy who lives a plane trip away and hes only known for 3 days? I get the party atmosphere is awesome, but doesnt he know that its got to end sometime?"

And there is then that part of me that understands that 7 years is a long time, and when one of your fantasies is readily available to become reality, it must be really hard to say no. You'd regret it if you didnt see what that fantasy come to life had in store for you. I often equate it to my own fantasies or crushes. Like, if one of my crushes said "hey ryan lets be in a relationship," I think I'd have a hard time saying no. At least initially, because the idea is so profound.

I love him, and we spent so much time together I imagine he must love me too. I get scared. I'm missing him so much but havent heard from him at all...I dont know if he misses me too.