Horribly Humiliating. I'm Losing Faith with People.

[Jay]

As I've mentioned to Rainbowmum, I'm slowly recovering. I'm returning back to normal. Apparently I'm stronger than I think. I guess I was really born to be a badass.

I had horrible few days thanks to Chris and co. But those horrible days have to come an end. I will not let Chris and the other guys defeat me.

They are not worthy to be my friends.

I can promise you one thing. I'll be back twice stronger and more confident than what I am right now after my surgery.

Signed on just to post that ^^^?

Jay one of the things you need to do is surround yourself with good people. The fact is you are not going up against 6 mean people by yourself. You do have the love and support of many good people.

True, few of us here can be at your side physically and use our canes on those terrible bastards... but we are with you in spirit.

It is easy to wallow in self pity, what is hard is to stand up, dust yourself off and continue with the rest of life.

You are hiding your light under a bushel... Stop it, you are denying all of us good folk from sharing your light. You took away your avatar picture here, have been staying away, a lot of us worry about you and how you are doing. You stole your light not just from the bastards of the world, but the rest of us too.

Being a mean bastard only works if you are only surrounded by mean people... What about the rest of us who depend on your kindness and warmth? Why are you going to punish us? What did we do?

We need your inspiration, your goodness, your motivation and kindness all of of that good stuff that we see in you. Your-gal friend needs you too.

Come back to us. Please. We need you.

Bowyn, I am alright now. Recovering but am alright. There are more important things for me to do then to cry and go depress. Yeah, I cried but I am done with that. I'm ready to move on.

As I've said before, I will not let Chris and his cronies have the last laugh. I will not let them destroy my life.

I can't post much right now because I'm rushing. I have to get ready to go to hospital in another 2 hours. I just got back from a bank to clear out my last month's credit card statement.

Again, thanks everyone for your supports and kind words. I truly appreciate it.

Anyway, I'm back.

See you guys after the surgery. By all means in a week or two. I'll try to ask my good friend, Vincent to update my condition via Rainbowmum and Daz. I can't promise but I'll do my best.

Take care everyone.