Horribly Humiliating. I'm Losing Faith with People.

[Jay]

Thanks for all the concerns and encouraging words everyone. Very much appreciated.

Well days gone by, I'm feeling awesome and also very happy now. I did some self searching to find answers. I have rediscovered my inner strength and positiveness to proceed with my life.

My physical strength has returned to normal. I now have returned to running, stairs climbing and dancing - full scale. I still only do light weightlifting though.

And if it's not too much, I feel freaking sexy now.

Regarding to repositioning my chest, I am okay with it now. It's not a big deal. As you guys have said, a little sacrifice for a bigger reward. Besides I can do fake orgasm.

Chris and co.

I have officially forgiven, forgotten and move on. I'm not upset or do not hold grudge towards any of them because that's not me. If Chris wants to stay bitter and spoil my name, be my guest. But if one day if he decides to apologize. I will accept it with open arms.

I've decided to continue to say hi and talk to Nick if he says hi and talk to me. I don't want to be rude. But I'll watch every word that I utter to him. Same goes with Shawn.

As for Sam, my once upon a time hero. Although I'm disappointed that he decides to follow Chris and break our friendship, I can't blame him. Chris and co are his colleagues and close friends. Of course he will believe every word from them. I'm okay to let him go now and I also believe that it is best for me to keep my distance from him. Who knows maybe one day he will see the truth.

As for karma, I previously really wanted karma to fall on their lap but not anymore. Even though they have screwed me off, I don't want to wish bad things to happen to any of them. But since I'm talking about karma right now, I was told by my female friend that one of them has been sacked from his job due to unrelated reason. I was honestly shocked. This is the second time heavy karma hit Chris and his friends off. Holy, karma really is a bitch.

So anyways thanks guys for everything. Again I feel awesome - inside and outside.