Boyfriend advice needed - complete newbie :O

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I don't think this man should be remembered as your first love, it's and unfortunate situation you have found yourself and my very real fear from what you have said is that you will be taken advantage of by this seemingly less than amicable older man.

Older people have the wisdom of knowing what to say and when for a desired reaction, this is called manipulation for I feel the only 'love' that he feels for you is between his legs, not in his heart.

My honest opinion...break off the contact with him, you will come out of this hurt. Make some new friends closer to your age, develop friendships and maybe one of those friendship with evolve into something that you deserve

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