02-01-2012, 04:06 AM
[COLOR="Navy"]Well here is the update.
The other night I had another episode, as in my IED (intermittent explosive disorder) and depression didnt help me keep my cool. I got aggravated with him over not having sex with me and started yelling things I didnt mean to say. That is for a different topic though.
I ended up being put on Prozac, and luckily there is a side affect of lowering the sex drive.
I am really happy about that.
However, in order to get the prozac I had to admit myself to a mental care facility.
It worked out well and I got what I needed but now my bf is acting weird and concidering dumping me. Hes been concidering letting me go whenever I would spaz out over the sex.
But now that I am fixed for the most part and I took the initiative to solve the problem, I am afraid he will not get out of this funk and dump me in the end.
I just hoping things work out in the end. But if not I am trying to prepare myself for the worst. [/COLOR]
[COLOR="RoyalBlue"]PS I just posted this on my facebook status.
Is it a bit much? What do you think?[/COLOR]
Im at a loss. I did my part to change. It hurt and I should have done it a long time ago, but I did it. I cant apologize or wait for you too act like you forgive me although I know it will take time for you to trust me. You are the best thing that has happened to me in Florida. Yes I had a job and an apartment. The best part was bring able to share my life experience with the person I love. I screwed up and I know, it is why I took the initiative to fix it. But I am that happy person you knew 2 months ago. I want to prove it to you. But I cant if I am given a cold shoulder or stare. I love you so much. I can only hope for the best but I dont know what to expect and I am prepared. I just need a sign that you care that I want what we had when we first started dating. Yes this is out for everyone to see. Everyone should know that I am taking responsibility for my actions. And I want you to know that I am the person you fell in love with. I love you.
The other night I had another episode, as in my IED (intermittent explosive disorder) and depression didnt help me keep my cool. I got aggravated with him over not having sex with me and started yelling things I didnt mean to say. That is for a different topic though.
I ended up being put on Prozac, and luckily there is a side affect of lowering the sex drive.
I am really happy about that.
However, in order to get the prozac I had to admit myself to a mental care facility.
It worked out well and I got what I needed but now my bf is acting weird and concidering dumping me. Hes been concidering letting me go whenever I would spaz out over the sex.
But now that I am fixed for the most part and I took the initiative to solve the problem, I am afraid he will not get out of this funk and dump me in the end.
I just hoping things work out in the end. But if not I am trying to prepare myself for the worst. [/COLOR]
[COLOR="RoyalBlue"]PS I just posted this on my facebook status.
Is it a bit much? What do you think?[/COLOR]
Im at a loss. I did my part to change. It hurt and I should have done it a long time ago, but I did it. I cant apologize or wait for you too act like you forgive me although I know it will take time for you to trust me. You are the best thing that has happened to me in Florida. Yes I had a job and an apartment. The best part was bring able to share my life experience with the person I love. I screwed up and I know, it is why I took the initiative to fix it. But I am that happy person you knew 2 months ago. I want to prove it to you. But I cant if I am given a cold shoulder or stare. I love you so much. I can only hope for the best but I dont know what to expect and I am prepared. I just need a sign that you care that I want what we had when we first started dating. Yes this is out for everyone to see. Everyone should know that I am taking responsibility for my actions. And I want you to know that I am the person you fell in love with. I love you.
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