01-24-2012, 05:47 AM
so just checking in - tonight i went to his place and we talked for about 2 hours and he started opening up with me more. he was then saying how he has forgiven me, however he cant forget... after talking some more he said that he wants to start hanging more as friends and he suggested we watch a movie this week at my place. then he started saying "i love my big bed" and "this blanket is so comfy" so then I layed down with him and put my arm on him. he didnt budge or say back off or anything... so we stayed there for about 15minutes but then he said "i think its time for you to go"... so i think overall it went well, but now im worrying that I pushed things too far too fast.
-as for the "once a cheater always a cheater". i somewhat believe that, however... every situation is different. When I cheated I was not out yet. I was still uncomfortable with myself. i was bullied pretty badly in high school when I tried coming out and it has made me very uncomfortable allowing me to be "me". I was afraid I would be bullied again with being around someone who was open, So yes... i cheated with someone who was closeted. I know its not a good excuse but I was not ready to be committed and I even told him this. But I have come out now and am strong and comfortable with who I am and I know I will never cheat again.
-as for the "once a cheater always a cheater". i somewhat believe that, however... every situation is different. When I cheated I was not out yet. I was still uncomfortable with myself. i was bullied pretty badly in high school when I tried coming out and it has made me very uncomfortable allowing me to be "me". I was afraid I would be bullied again with being around someone who was open, So yes... i cheated with someone who was closeted. I know its not a good excuse but I was not ready to be committed and I even told him this. But I have come out now and am strong and comfortable with who I am and I know I will never cheat again.