So fed up with this BF/Relationship thing

[chillout100]

Perfect relationship? Nope. There have been years where I laid there in the wee hours of the morning next to him in bed listening to him doing that annoying thing - you know - breathing and thinking up fantastic ways to commit the perfect murder. He has a double indemnity clause on his life insurance polices (yes plural) so If I could make it look like an accident - well not only would I be freed from that annoying breathing he does but be rolling in money for a while.

Hilarious! The constant breathing in and out, in and out! I'm in a long term relationship as well. Going on 7 years. All you stated was correct, though we don't take separate vacations and he has teenage kids that I've helped raise. Wouldn't trade this relationship for anything in the world with all it's ups and downs.

[GayDatingExpert]

It does sound as though you have become entrenched in a pattern of behaviour that is creating this downward spiral of negative self talk. Time to re-assess you individual goals in life, career and friendships. Read the book 30 Day Dating Detox, and follow the 30 day steps, this will help you realign yourself and put you on a different path.