Just bury this thread... Just let the thread die...
How did I know once I started to say a word things would turn tables?
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You know dfiant, I get that you have your temper. But instead of deleting "You idiot" you could have just apologize in the next post.
Remind me again, why you had put the infraction on inchante? For insulting other people?
Anon, my offer stands.
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Because I don't believe you deserve an apology, your comments are incredibly ignorant, insensitive and have hurt my feelings, you deserved and got what you asked for.
I deleted my comments to make ME feel better.
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Lets not fight over this guys. There is no easy fix answer to the op's problem. Probably mentioning to his gp/Dr is a good idea as he can be referred to a specialist if need be. Remember to say you would rather avoid medication and would like to talk your problems over with someone. I think just being able to talk to someone understanding with a positive viewpoint on a regular basis will help a lot. Depression can get worse if you can't vent what is on your mind. Your family need not know about the problem as medical matters between you and your doc should be confidential.
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Ok, now that I have my head around things.
I'm a straight shooter, advice was asked and based on what the OP has written I was seeing a pattern that I was familiar with as it is not unlike what I have been through myself, and I stand by my original advice.
What I had trouble with was being challenged for my opinion, and then having something totally irrelevant thrown in my face and yes I do get defensive when I am challenged and will fall in to the same trap.
Tough love is often the best love, and owning your own issues is the first step to overcoming what weighs you down.
YES i'm concerned for the OP and based on my own personal experience, the advice I gave the OP is the best I had/have to offer and to be challenged and abused for it, is just plain rude.
What the OP takes from our individual advisements is the OP business, I just hope that one or more of the advisements help.
I'm sorry this thread went off topic and I wish the OP all the best in wrestling the black dog.
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Cyclic Depression could be a symptom of bi-polar disorder.
SAD (seasonal affected disorder) is mine, each winter I descend into the depths of despair. In summer I go hypo-manic - bouncing off the walls.
The symptoms are like bi-polarism, however its over the course of the year and directly ties into the amount of light that hits the earth during the season. Dark winters mean depression, bright summers mean hypo-mania.
Suicide doesn't fix anything. And now days it may not even count since the marvels of modern medicine can pull more people back from death. I did that once, killed myself... Trust me it wasn't fun before, during and definitely not after.
The part that makes me curious is the dramatic ending so people will notice you. This is not too uncommon for suicides, their act and attempts are just exactly that - a call for attention, attention they lack in more positive ways.
IF you want a sure fire way to commit suicide I can help you there. The only reason why my suicide failed is because I had promised my mother that when the time came that I would kill myself I would call her to say good-by.
She promised to not get involved and try to stop me. She lied - the bitch.
Mind the difference between me and you is that I really wanted to die. I didn't want to male a showy end. I just wanted out of life. I called my mother and said goodby then went about doing it. While I was shuffling off this mortal coil EMT broke down the door to my house and 'rescued' me. Rushing me to the hospital were they pumped my stomach and introduced other drugs into my system. I died, twice in fact, as my heart stopped beating and my lungs stopped pulling breath for several minutes.
After my death I was not in a good mood. I spent a year 'moping' - decrying my stolen rest, activity pushing the limits of my self destructive tendencies.
I have been dead 17 years now. I have a love hate type relationship with those ER Doctors who either fortunately saved me from making a terrible mistake or are the bastards who have caused my suffering to continue... How I view that depends on my current mood - and its not always when I am depressed that I hate them the most.
So yeah, I have been where you are, further in fact. I'm not being boastful about killing myself - its just a matter of fact.
Each year of my demise I reflect on the passing of yet one more year since I died. Yes indeed some of those years have been worse than 1994 (the year I killed myself) a few have been far, far better and full of such joy that I never would have imagines in the last month of my life - before I committed that murder.
You are not alone, millions if not hundreds of millions contemplate suicide as a real working solution to depression. Thousands succeed at doing the act.
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