06-10-2012, 05:28 AM
I’ll just get straight to the facts:
I met this young man just over a year ago.
We’ve been inseparable since then.
We talk/text every day.
We tell each other we love each other every day.
He’s very very gay and I get that, but he KNOWS I’m in love with him, and still calls me constantly, telling me he needs to see me, etc.. He always starts phone calls with, “whom are you with? Are you cheating on me? You like him…more than you like me.†Things like that.
We’ve never come out and said it, but he does indeed know that I’ve fallen in love with him. He tries to get me to admit this, but I just drop my eyes and pout and look the other way, or try to walk away, but he’ll pull on my sweater and hold me close. I’ll grab him and pull him close, breathing into his neck, then push him away. “get over yourselfâ€Â, I say, finally breaking away from him. His gaze follows me, both of us knowing the truth, but not coming out to discuss it. He’s very sensitive and won’t come out and say “I love you too, but not that wayâ€Â…or what ever could be in his mind. Who knows at this point?
When I first met him, he dressed very gay, etc., but now, he’s extremely masculine in his dress and manner. We spend almost every waking moment together, sleeping in my bed, cuddling, etc. We kiss on the lips, and when we’re tipsy, he’s very touch feely. He likes my D cups, but says they’re ‘just toys’ and doesn’t see them as a sexual object. He picks out my clothes and had me buy dark red lipstick which I only wear when we’re together. I wear the perfume he likes, and he wears what I like. When we go on trips apart from each other, we each carry a swatch of the other’s scent. When we’re together, he constantly talks about other guys, chats, etc., but recently got rid of all his ‘gay’ apps, stating that it’s because he likes this guy and he’s giving it up for him, but this guy isn’t even into him, and when my bff comes over or calls after hanging out with this new guy, he says he feels very ‘unfulfilled.â€Â. ??
Since I’ve known him, he’s had one boyfriend – needless to say, I didn’t care for him, but always put on a brave face, although my bff would lovingly look down at me and gently ask me to be nice, but he loved that I was insanely jealous, to which I would never admit, but my bff would always just nod and say “mmmhmmmâ€Â. After 7 months, my bff broke up with him. I was relieved of course, but also sad that it apparently made my bff sad as well, although it was his idea. To this day, he still won’t say exactly why they broke up.
He knows I’ve only had sex with one person my entire life. He says and does things to embarrass me; but it’s usually all in good fun. He recently told me that he plans on having sex with a woman over the summer ‘to experiment’, he says. “Please promise me one thing,†I asked. "I don’t want to know who it is or when it happens – ok?†Ok, he said, laughing.
Now I’m quite older than him. Everywhere we go, people stare at us, as we’re very affectionate in public and make a joke about ‘making people think dirty things about us†lol. I would never try to ‘seduce’ a gay man (that’s just disrespectful and sick in my opinion). Every time EVERY TIME I try to pull away, he pulls me close and will text me things that make me believe he truly is IN MY HEAD. It’s very strange, this connection we have. I know many women fall in love with their gay bff’s – I get it. But I’m in this forum to try to find out more about how the gay mind works.
Help! What do I do? Pull away? Is he confused? Sigh.
I met this young man just over a year ago.
We’ve been inseparable since then.
We talk/text every day.
We tell each other we love each other every day.
He’s very very gay and I get that, but he KNOWS I’m in love with him, and still calls me constantly, telling me he needs to see me, etc.. He always starts phone calls with, “whom are you with? Are you cheating on me? You like him…more than you like me.†Things like that.
We’ve never come out and said it, but he does indeed know that I’ve fallen in love with him. He tries to get me to admit this, but I just drop my eyes and pout and look the other way, or try to walk away, but he’ll pull on my sweater and hold me close. I’ll grab him and pull him close, breathing into his neck, then push him away. “get over yourselfâ€Â, I say, finally breaking away from him. His gaze follows me, both of us knowing the truth, but not coming out to discuss it. He’s very sensitive and won’t come out and say “I love you too, but not that wayâ€Â…or what ever could be in his mind. Who knows at this point?
When I first met him, he dressed very gay, etc., but now, he’s extremely masculine in his dress and manner. We spend almost every waking moment together, sleeping in my bed, cuddling, etc. We kiss on the lips, and when we’re tipsy, he’s very touch feely. He likes my D cups, but says they’re ‘just toys’ and doesn’t see them as a sexual object. He picks out my clothes and had me buy dark red lipstick which I only wear when we’re together. I wear the perfume he likes, and he wears what I like. When we go on trips apart from each other, we each carry a swatch of the other’s scent. When we’re together, he constantly talks about other guys, chats, etc., but recently got rid of all his ‘gay’ apps, stating that it’s because he likes this guy and he’s giving it up for him, but this guy isn’t even into him, and when my bff comes over or calls after hanging out with this new guy, he says he feels very ‘unfulfilled.â€Â. ??
Since I’ve known him, he’s had one boyfriend – needless to say, I didn’t care for him, but always put on a brave face, although my bff would lovingly look down at me and gently ask me to be nice, but he loved that I was insanely jealous, to which I would never admit, but my bff would always just nod and say “mmmhmmmâ€Â. After 7 months, my bff broke up with him. I was relieved of course, but also sad that it apparently made my bff sad as well, although it was his idea. To this day, he still won’t say exactly why they broke up.
He knows I’ve only had sex with one person my entire life. He says and does things to embarrass me; but it’s usually all in good fun. He recently told me that he plans on having sex with a woman over the summer ‘to experiment’, he says. “Please promise me one thing,†I asked. "I don’t want to know who it is or when it happens – ok?†Ok, he said, laughing.
Now I’m quite older than him. Everywhere we go, people stare at us, as we’re very affectionate in public and make a joke about ‘making people think dirty things about us†lol. I would never try to ‘seduce’ a gay man (that’s just disrespectful and sick in my opinion). Every time EVERY TIME I try to pull away, he pulls me close and will text me things that make me believe he truly is IN MY HEAD. It’s very strange, this connection we have. I know many women fall in love with their gay bff’s – I get it. But I’m in this forum to try to find out more about how the gay mind works.
Help! What do I do? Pull away? Is he confused? Sigh.