07-18-2012, 04:41 AM
Okay so there is this guy that I like, the usual intro. Our relationship seems to be getting stronger then it used to be. We have been friends for a couple of years now and he seems to like me so much but also gives me mixed signals.
So here goes, I don't know if he knows I am gay. And I don't know if he is. Or if he is if he even likes me that way. I have studied body language and all the signs are there. His pupils dilate when I am a around. He keeps constant eye contact when we are talking. He smiles endlessly when I am around. His feet almost always point towards me. If we touch he never pulls away. He always leans towards me when I am talking. There is something in his eyes that says more than friends when I look. He always puts his hands around his crotch and seems to want me to see his goods. He constantly wants me to feel his muscles. He put his head on my shoulder one evening at the movies. If I touch my crotch I can always see him looking out the corner of my eye.
Then there is the fact we are almost always together. His face seems to light up when I come around. He cancels plans just to spend more time with me. He tells me to drive slow when we are out. All of his plans he has he almost always includes me. He offered to buy me a pair of shoes the other day when he went to the mall. He also really wanted me to go on the mall trip but I couldn't and he was gonna be gone for a couple of days. He has made so many plans for our future and they all include me
But then the mixed signals come in. He says he doesn't get turned on by penis. He is always texting girls. Well when I am not talking then thankfully the attention is back on me when I am. He ditched me with another guy the other night to go "scouting girls" I am really hoping this was just because the other guy was. I was hanging with my other friend which might have been why. I hope he wasn't really into it. But then held the car door open for me later which he did for no one else.
His dad is a major homophobe and he said his dad said he would kill him if he found out that he was gay. So weather that is implying that he is and don't want his dad to find out or if he was he would kill him, I don't know. So I am hoping this is what all the claims of being straight are coming from. I am hoping it is just to get his dad off of his back. He is actually moving out to get away from his dad. But he says he is gonna come back every weekend and we are going out. And he wants me to get a job where he is moving to.
Then coming home from a ride one evening he turned off the music and said he needed to ask me a serious question. He asked me what I thought about love? Needless to say this really got me thinking about why he was asking. I jokingly answered its bullshit like he always says. Then said its there, you just gotta wait. Then he asked me if I ever liked anyone. I said of course, then he asked who. I said I will never tell. He seemed disappointed and said I didn't figure. Maybe hoping I would slip and say a guys name, or hopefully his but once again I don't know. There is always a reason for every question.
Just the fact that this boy wants to be around me so much despite everyone telling him I am gay says something to me. He says he don't give a shit what everyone says. Someone please help me I am going crazy trying to figure this boy out. There seems to be more positive things than negative. But I have been here before and always get let down. So any advice, answers, stories, anything would help, thanks.
So here goes, I don't know if he knows I am gay. And I don't know if he is. Or if he is if he even likes me that way. I have studied body language and all the signs are there. His pupils dilate when I am a around. He keeps constant eye contact when we are talking. He smiles endlessly when I am around. His feet almost always point towards me. If we touch he never pulls away. He always leans towards me when I am talking. There is something in his eyes that says more than friends when I look. He always puts his hands around his crotch and seems to want me to see his goods. He constantly wants me to feel his muscles. He put his head on my shoulder one evening at the movies. If I touch my crotch I can always see him looking out the corner of my eye.
Then there is the fact we are almost always together. His face seems to light up when I come around. He cancels plans just to spend more time with me. He tells me to drive slow when we are out. All of his plans he has he almost always includes me. He offered to buy me a pair of shoes the other day when he went to the mall. He also really wanted me to go on the mall trip but I couldn't and he was gonna be gone for a couple of days. He has made so many plans for our future and they all include me
But then the mixed signals come in. He says he doesn't get turned on by penis. He is always texting girls. Well when I am not talking then thankfully the attention is back on me when I am. He ditched me with another guy the other night to go "scouting girls" I am really hoping this was just because the other guy was. I was hanging with my other friend which might have been why. I hope he wasn't really into it. But then held the car door open for me later which he did for no one else.
His dad is a major homophobe and he said his dad said he would kill him if he found out that he was gay. So weather that is implying that he is and don't want his dad to find out or if he was he would kill him, I don't know. So I am hoping this is what all the claims of being straight are coming from. I am hoping it is just to get his dad off of his back. He is actually moving out to get away from his dad. But he says he is gonna come back every weekend and we are going out. And he wants me to get a job where he is moving to.
Then coming home from a ride one evening he turned off the music and said he needed to ask me a serious question. He asked me what I thought about love? Needless to say this really got me thinking about why he was asking. I jokingly answered its bullshit like he always says. Then said its there, you just gotta wait. Then he asked me if I ever liked anyone. I said of course, then he asked who. I said I will never tell. He seemed disappointed and said I didn't figure. Maybe hoping I would slip and say a guys name, or hopefully his but once again I don't know. There is always a reason for every question.
Just the fact that this boy wants to be around me so much despite everyone telling him I am gay says something to me. He says he don't give a shit what everyone says. Someone please help me I am going crazy trying to figure this boy out. There seems to be more positive things than negative. But I have been here before and always get let down. So any advice, answers, stories, anything would help, thanks.
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