Fixed, don't know why half of my post self deleted over night.
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One should take concience of the waste of time and energy consumed fighting back our own nature and not accepting what we really are. It is a simply a waste of time that we can use for more productive and fullfilling activities.
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Admitting and accepting that you are gay internally is a huge step, so is even going online and saying it.
One thing you do have in your favor, as far as moving toward coming out goes, you are single and that eliminates the problems that would come were you married to a woman.
I'm not that much younger than you, so I understand the attitude toward gays that the earlier part of you life, especially your formative years, set in your mind. I also know you see how that has changed and where it has not changed. Now you have to decide how you want to handle the unavoidable negative comments and attitudes you will encounter IF you decided to come out.
You also know that if you don't, it's going to make dating a lot harder, and reduce your chances of finding a partner you would be truly happy with but, on the other hand, you see men like me that are out and single, have been though a few broken relationships and wonder if a partner is really that important to you. I can't answer that, only you know what you want your future to be.
All any of us here can do is be here and, support you and, offer advice as you head for that future.
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