New and Need Some New Advice PLEASE!
11-28-2012, 03:34 AM
Hi guys and gals!
I will make this as short as possible. I've really had to stop and think about my sexuality lately. As a 12 year old, I used to look up other boys shorts and see their briefs or stare at their butt, if it was nice. Both of these actions lead to an erection. I began masturbating to these images at a young age.
Although the sensation was incredible, I often felt guilt and felt that it was "gay" and that was gross. I kind of thought that I was the only boy doing this crap so I should stop. It never happened. In fact all through middle and high school, I imagined other guys in their briefs and masturbated. I even found some guys attractive or cute. I did have an intense crush on a boy my freshman year. Honestly, I liked and noticed girls too.
After high school, it was hotter. I would look at guys everywhere, work, mall, parks, wherever, and would look for guys who turned me on. It was like a hobby. I didn't seem to care about women at all. Yeah, I found them attractive and yeah I wanted to marry a few, but there was something about men. It seems to have become stronger.
I went through a phase where I was watching a ton of reality shows. My interest was in the male contestants. I was turned on by them and yes thought about them in a sexual way. I remember looking up their life on the internet and hoping that I would find out they were gay. Or when some stars, like Lance Bass, Davis Mallory or T.R. Knight came out, I felt kind of good. The funny thing was, I felt gross If I was gay, but it was okay for them. Weird! I still check guys sexual orientation when I wikepedia them.
A few years ago, I kind of fell for a couple of guys around me. I'm not talking underwear, I'm talking a good sense of humor or sweet personality or just plain good looking. It made me evaluate and think "there has to be a reason why I like guys in their underwear all the time and now I'm seem to be really like them. I came to the conclusion that I really like the male body. Yes, underwear has been sexy, but my interest has grown to maybe getting to know a guy.Truthfully, I would to feel a little up close and personal with a guy that I found attractive. When I think about being gay, I'm very conscious and really wonder if it is for me or wonder if I could do this. I do see attractive women from time to time, but I usually have my eye out for a guy and that is who seems to turn me on.
What do you think? Am I gay? I know, nobody can answer that but me, but does it seem like it? Could it just be like an underwear fetish or something?
I will make this as short as possible. I've really had to stop and think about my sexuality lately. As a 12 year old, I used to look up other boys shorts and see their briefs or stare at their butt, if it was nice. Both of these actions lead to an erection. I began masturbating to these images at a young age.
Although the sensation was incredible, I often felt guilt and felt that it was "gay" and that was gross. I kind of thought that I was the only boy doing this crap so I should stop. It never happened. In fact all through middle and high school, I imagined other guys in their briefs and masturbated. I even found some guys attractive or cute. I did have an intense crush on a boy my freshman year. Honestly, I liked and noticed girls too.
After high school, it was hotter. I would look at guys everywhere, work, mall, parks, wherever, and would look for guys who turned me on. It was like a hobby. I didn't seem to care about women at all. Yeah, I found them attractive and yeah I wanted to marry a few, but there was something about men. It seems to have become stronger.
I went through a phase where I was watching a ton of reality shows. My interest was in the male contestants. I was turned on by them and yes thought about them in a sexual way. I remember looking up their life on the internet and hoping that I would find out they were gay. Or when some stars, like Lance Bass, Davis Mallory or T.R. Knight came out, I felt kind of good. The funny thing was, I felt gross If I was gay, but it was okay for them. Weird! I still check guys sexual orientation when I wikepedia them.
A few years ago, I kind of fell for a couple of guys around me. I'm not talking underwear, I'm talking a good sense of humor or sweet personality or just plain good looking. It made me evaluate and think "there has to be a reason why I like guys in their underwear all the time and now I'm seem to be really like them. I came to the conclusion that I really like the male body. Yes, underwear has been sexy, but my interest has grown to maybe getting to know a guy.Truthfully, I would to feel a little up close and personal with a guy that I found attractive. When I think about being gay, I'm very conscious and really wonder if it is for me or wonder if I could do this. I do see attractive women from time to time, but I usually have my eye out for a guy and that is who seems to turn me on.
What do you think? Am I gay? I know, nobody can answer that but me, but does it seem like it? Could it just be like an underwear fetish or something?
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