Unsure if first time was forced sex.

[Counselor]

well he pushed when you say stop, but in the end you liked it, so yeah it was kind of a rape but with a happy ending

Victims don't need this kind of "gray area" thinking, though. It's like saying "When we started, you said no, but once you liked it, it wasn't rape anymore."

If you started with consent, no, it isn't rape. If at any point someone says they want to stop, yes, it's rape. This was abusive consentual sex.