04-22-2013, 06:46 AM
It's almost funny how my life has turned out. I was always the kid who annoyed everyone. The kid who talked to much. Had no real close friends. Eventually that changed when I did. Slowly I realized how lonely I was and I just decided it was time to start trying to fit in. At the time, I hadn't even considered the fact that I could be gay, and if I would have, I'd have just said to hell with fitting in, because being both gay and this towns version of normal would never work. But sadly, I didn't. So I spent a good few years of my life changing into what was socially acceptable, and that was just to have friends. Now that I've graduated, and I'm about to start college 3 hours away from this horrid town, I'm a little afraid. Who will I be there? Hell, who am I here, really? I have friends who go to the college I'm attending, and I'm really glad to have them, but I have a desperate need to make a few gay friends. In all my life, as short as its been, I've never had a real conversation with a gay man either my age or older. The only role models I have for gay men are Justin and Brian from Queer As Folk, to which I've become addicted. And I think for those of you who know which show I'm talking about, none of those characters should ever serve as role models. Except maybe Debbi, but I'm not interested in becoming a PFLAG mom. So I suppose you can say, the point of this post is to see who all out there is looking for a friendship.
Believe it or not, I'm no longer that annoying little kid, and from what my friends tell me, I'm a damn good friend. So befriend me, post back on here, message me, anything. I'd love to have that first real conversation with a gay guy lol.
Until that point, I desperately need sleep, so I must bid you farewell.
Believe it or not, I'm no longer that annoying little kid, and from what my friends tell me, I'm a damn good friend. So befriend me, post back on here, message me, anything. I'd love to have that first real conversation with a gay guy lol.
Until that point, I desperately need sleep, so I must bid you farewell.