10-06-2013, 02:21 AM
So Death.
A topic many are uncomfortable with a with good reason it seems.
However, I want to talk about it... it's very interesting.
Now this morning, I woke up thinking about it, which isn't all that uncommon, especially if my feet are cold when I go to sleep I've noticed... And I've been thinking about it since about Ten years old, you know like any other kid, ever since I saw the dead face of a family member I've never met...
I often wonder, when I die, what will become of the space I occupied? Will the people after me be happier, sadder? Will the world continue to spin?
Just those types of questions, as I think I'm more concerned as to what will happen once I'm gone. Not that I'm particularly special in the grand scheme of things, but as a person who likes to read....and read...and read and learn and know and understand things, this topic among many is one I can never quite understand...
To me, we all came from nature, our spiritual essence is more or less imbued with the planet and it's energy and that we came forth with the other inhabitants of this planet from that energy or even from one who knew how to harness the energy, I don't accurately know obviously, but it's what I believe.
So that when we die, I feel as if though it's only correct we go back into the planet or lend over our spiritual energy to safeguard it for future generations of people and animals, however this is just my belief and I'm not sure if this is what actually happens and will happen.
Which is why I often think about it, because I'm not sure. I will admit if scares me not to know or be aware of something, especially something such as this, but I feel like it's supposed to happen at some point.
People here may remember, and perhaps not believe however, My family has a long running experience with the paranormal, mostly just spirits/ghosts, however, as far as I can tell, none were malevolent. They lead me to further wonder what happens after Death.
My Grandmother and all her Sisters, including her Twin has shared a dream at one point, they all recall it the same way and she has had numerous other experiences, most of which she thinks is her father, her Father himself had experiences, possibly because he worked as a nurse/orderly in a mental institution...
My Mother is very sensitive emotionally, probably where I get it from, and is easily influenced by things in a room and when she was 14 and pregnant with me, a ball of light, which my family believes to be my Nana's father who had died hours earlier, flew around her belly twice and flew into it and a few days later, my mother discovered she was pregnant with me.
My Mother said when I was young, I would run around and chase someone who was never there and that my first word was Light, pointing up at the ceiling and all throughout my years have claimed to see people and black dots on the walls, which I actually do remember and still sometimes see and even remember once a Man was watching us from our Kitchen when we would watch TV together in the living room.
I would lay down in bed for school and after my mother would tuck me in, I would see a Man's reflection in my Bedroom TV and would look back at the Bathroom where he would always be standing and no one would be there. Needless to say I suffered long sleepless nights for a really long time. Even now, I have my odd dreams and feel a presence whenever I look at the Tree across the street from my house near the Primary school there and it makes me kinda unnerved.
I am aware how crazy this type of stuff sounds to people, but sometimes you have to see to believe...
This is why I'm so curious as to what Death is all about...
In some dreams, usually if I sleep without socks and it's particularly cold, I dream about a void and then I see something just out of view and then I wake up very sad and scared usually, and my body would be shivering, despite my blankets and Island's natural warm nights.
I'm sure there would be logical explanations for these things, but I really don't feel as if they all can be...
So I am curious as to what you guy's think about Death.
Sorry if I drudge up any fears anyone has, I really am curious though. It's not a topic talked about often :crying-and-sorry-li
Plus we could use a Break from Penises, Vaginas and Sexuality
A topic many are uncomfortable with a with good reason it seems.
However, I want to talk about it... it's very interesting.
Now this morning, I woke up thinking about it, which isn't all that uncommon, especially if my feet are cold when I go to sleep I've noticed... And I've been thinking about it since about Ten years old, you know like any other kid, ever since I saw the dead face of a family member I've never met...
I often wonder, when I die, what will become of the space I occupied? Will the people after me be happier, sadder? Will the world continue to spin?
Just those types of questions, as I think I'm more concerned as to what will happen once I'm gone. Not that I'm particularly special in the grand scheme of things, but as a person who likes to read....and read...and read and learn and know and understand things, this topic among many is one I can never quite understand...
To me, we all came from nature, our spiritual essence is more or less imbued with the planet and it's energy and that we came forth with the other inhabitants of this planet from that energy or even from one who knew how to harness the energy, I don't accurately know obviously, but it's what I believe.
So that when we die, I feel as if though it's only correct we go back into the planet or lend over our spiritual energy to safeguard it for future generations of people and animals, however this is just my belief and I'm not sure if this is what actually happens and will happen.
Which is why I often think about it, because I'm not sure. I will admit if scares me not to know or be aware of something, especially something such as this, but I feel like it's supposed to happen at some point.
People here may remember, and perhaps not believe however, My family has a long running experience with the paranormal, mostly just spirits/ghosts, however, as far as I can tell, none were malevolent. They lead me to further wonder what happens after Death.
My Grandmother and all her Sisters, including her Twin has shared a dream at one point, they all recall it the same way and she has had numerous other experiences, most of which she thinks is her father, her Father himself had experiences, possibly because he worked as a nurse/orderly in a mental institution...
My Mother is very sensitive emotionally, probably where I get it from, and is easily influenced by things in a room and when she was 14 and pregnant with me, a ball of light, which my family believes to be my Nana's father who had died hours earlier, flew around her belly twice and flew into it and a few days later, my mother discovered she was pregnant with me.
My Mother said when I was young, I would run around and chase someone who was never there and that my first word was Light, pointing up at the ceiling and all throughout my years have claimed to see people and black dots on the walls, which I actually do remember and still sometimes see and even remember once a Man was watching us from our Kitchen when we would watch TV together in the living room.
I would lay down in bed for school and after my mother would tuck me in, I would see a Man's reflection in my Bedroom TV and would look back at the Bathroom where he would always be standing and no one would be there. Needless to say I suffered long sleepless nights for a really long time. Even now, I have my odd dreams and feel a presence whenever I look at the Tree across the street from my house near the Primary school there and it makes me kinda unnerved.
I am aware how crazy this type of stuff sounds to people, but sometimes you have to see to believe...
This is why I'm so curious as to what Death is all about...
In some dreams, usually if I sleep without socks and it's particularly cold, I dream about a void and then I see something just out of view and then I wake up very sad and scared usually, and my body would be shivering, despite my blankets and Island's natural warm nights.
I'm sure there would be logical explanations for these things, but I really don't feel as if they all can be...
So I am curious as to what you guy's think about Death.
Sorry if I drudge up any fears anyone has, I really am curious though. It's not a topic talked about often :crying-and-sorry-li
Plus we could use a Break from Penises, Vaginas and Sexuality