05-29-2014, 09:22 AM
Okay, I'm not sure how to fully explain, but here's to hoping someone understands. For many years I have had fantasies about the same sex and not just the same sex, but also transgendered especially. I'm still very attracted to the opposite sex, but still I go back to those fantasies more than often. A lot of times I want those fantasies to be real, but I'm scared. Honestly I'm not sure if I'm gay or not, if I were, I would totally be okay with that. Also if I am gay, I'd find it very hard to come out to my family, because everyone seems mostly against the idea. They see it as not right, which I think there's nothing wrong with being gay. Mind you I live in a real southern town, so everyone thinks like that here, but I've always felt I had nothing in common with anyone here. As far as my family goes, my dad I don't speak to anymore, because he has done nothing but put me down my whole life. My mother I am close with, as well as my sister. In general I feel very comfortable around gay people. I can't explain exactly why, but its a good comfort. These feelings I have about the same sex are very strong and again I've had since I think I was atleast 10 years of age. I'm not sure if I should act on these thoughts or am I gay, bi, or whatever I just don't know. So, if there's anyone out there that would like to give me there opinion or advice, I would be very much appreciative.