07-11-2014, 10:08 AM
This isn't just about a gay guy having a crush on his straight friend, this is about valuable protection.
I've known this guy for about 6 months, met him at his 19th birthday party. Immediately we became very close friends, dunno how or what kind of soul attraction was that, as if I knew him long time ago. Heâs the only 1 who became this close to me in a matter of seconds, and my friend who introduced me to him was astonished, expecting a cold attitude...
After that day, some kind of trust grew between us. We only met once a month but chatted quite frequently, and I knew many beautiful things about him. Heâs caring, very lovely, peaceful, and says nothing bad about me.
Once I asked him advice about how to attract a girl Iâm supposed to fall in love with just to bury my secret of being gay... but thatâs not my concern right now. Heâs totally straight, conservative and homophobic.
However, although heâs a brother to me who I canât imagine losing, some crap of crush started to grow for him, which I myself never expected. That started 2 days ago after I had a wonderful dream about him. As the time passes those damn feelings are growing, and I absolutely need to kill them before they kill our brotherhood. I wonât lie heâs 1 type of guys I find attractive, but that never influenced my looks toward him until now. So far, he's the only close friend I have left...
I can never tell him the truth, nor I can follow my emotionss but Iâm ok with it. But how can I destroy them and keep myself from rushing in a blind second? I would NEVER hurt him; he could kill me and get away with it but that would still pain him. I'd sacrifice the world to protect him, even myself but I donât want that happening.
Just plz help me murder my wrongly-placed feelings and bury them before itâs too late.
I know youâll say itâs another silly too common situation; I couldn't keep it unsounded though. Anyway... Iâll be so grateful to your advice.
I've known this guy for about 6 months, met him at his 19th birthday party. Immediately we became very close friends, dunno how or what kind of soul attraction was that, as if I knew him long time ago. Heâs the only 1 who became this close to me in a matter of seconds, and my friend who introduced me to him was astonished, expecting a cold attitude...
After that day, some kind of trust grew between us. We only met once a month but chatted quite frequently, and I knew many beautiful things about him. Heâs caring, very lovely, peaceful, and says nothing bad about me.
Once I asked him advice about how to attract a girl Iâm supposed to fall in love with just to bury my secret of being gay... but thatâs not my concern right now. Heâs totally straight, conservative and homophobic.
However, although heâs a brother to me who I canât imagine losing, some crap of crush started to grow for him, which I myself never expected. That started 2 days ago after I had a wonderful dream about him. As the time passes those damn feelings are growing, and I absolutely need to kill them before they kill our brotherhood. I wonât lie heâs 1 type of guys I find attractive, but that never influenced my looks toward him until now. So far, he's the only close friend I have left...
I can never tell him the truth, nor I can follow my emotionss but Iâm ok with it. But how can I destroy them and keep myself from rushing in a blind second? I would NEVER hurt him; he could kill me and get away with it but that would still pain him. I'd sacrifice the world to protect him, even myself but I donât want that happening.
Just plz help me murder my wrongly-placed feelings and bury them before itâs too late.
I know youâll say itâs another silly too common situation; I couldn't keep it unsounded though. Anyway... Iâll be so grateful to your advice.