Anonymous Wrote:You misunderstood almost everything,
Did I?
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Anonymous Wrote:Most of all I guess I'm ashamed because my suicidal feelings are really founded in my complete lack of faith in other people as well as, in the case of the few persons I actually like and value, my inability to ever reach something meaningful..
Anonymous Wrote:I don't really want a deeper relationship with another person to affirm myself; because I feel affirmed already. I just want a sincere, deep contact, romantic or not, that can restore my belief in human relationships which is in many ways the most fundamental necessity to exist happily, at least for a very large majority of people.
ETOTE Wrote:So to summarize, you are basically just feeling crappy about having a difficult time trying to find the right guy to possibly have a meaningful relationship with and you are just sulking about this one and first bad experience, widening the reflection to just wanting more meaning in life period with your activities, your friends, people who you can really connect with and relate to, that understand you, all while having a deep, committed, loving, meaningful relationship with a guy.
Anonymous Wrote:I know the problem still lies in my attitude but it's offensive to belittle my experiences with "silly gay guy had a first bad encounter and is taking it out on the human race".
^not what I was said or even implied at all
Wasn't intending to be offensive or belittling, if I was, it would be more like "pull your head out of your butt, get off your high horse and get over yourself."
Was merely being blunt, honest, straight forward and direct, rather than sugar coat the summary, opinion and suggestion with a bunch of frilly nonsense.
You can take it however you want though, that's all up to you.
Your post here is my case in point that if you want to change your situation, you need to change your attitude and perspective, take the focus off yourself and take a genuine interest in others lives, their thoughts, their feelings, their perspectives and experiences.
Don't let intellect or as some would call arrogance, blind you from experiencing the richness and diversity of life and relationships.
I'm sure you'll disagree with this and find it offensive as well, but...oh well, such is life.