10-24-2014, 03:36 AM
If anyone remembers my introduction topic. I was really depressed when I first came around here. As 2014 came around it was a decent year for the most part. I posted this in the What's on your mind topic, but felt like re-posting it here.
Kinda shitty. Found out my ex that broke up with me over distance, moved to a city an hour away, while I was dating someone else. Now that I know he lives closer, I am single again, and that I am in the job hunt, I have been wondering if there is any chance we could get back together. I know it's unhealthy, but he's all I can think about. I've considered getting a job in that city and then getting a hold of him if the job sticks. I've also been thinking about just contacting him now to see if there could be anything. No matter what I think about doing it can't lead to anything good, but I feel like I need to contact him at some point. Just feels like something I need to do. I feel like I've turned into that creepy guy that will never move on. I kinda hate that he's all I think about. I have to force myself to even take a substitute teaching job.
If anything I feel like things have just gotten worse. I know everyone here is going to tell me to not text him, but I think I am going to text him this weekend. I feel like potentially getting a rejection from him in some way will be better than sitting here wondering what if.
Kinda shitty. Found out my ex that broke up with me over distance, moved to a city an hour away, while I was dating someone else. Now that I know he lives closer, I am single again, and that I am in the job hunt, I have been wondering if there is any chance we could get back together. I know it's unhealthy, but he's all I can think about. I've considered getting a job in that city and then getting a hold of him if the job sticks. I've also been thinking about just contacting him now to see if there could be anything. No matter what I think about doing it can't lead to anything good, but I feel like I need to contact him at some point. Just feels like something I need to do. I feel like I've turned into that creepy guy that will never move on. I kinda hate that he's all I think about. I have to force myself to even take a substitute teaching job.
If anything I feel like things have just gotten worse. I know everyone here is going to tell me to not text him, but I think I am going to text him this weekend. I feel like potentially getting a rejection from him in some way will be better than sitting here wondering what if.