12-27-2014, 08:03 AM
I'm not sure how weird this actually is outside of my head (due to the fact that I have no one to talk about this stuff to...) but here it is anyways.
So there is no doubt in my mind that I like guys (i am a guy) and I'm ok with that. I am also ok with the term "gay" if I really belong in that category, I just rather not label myself because I honestly believe that labels restrict individuality to a point. I have never experienced any sexual attraction to any women (besides a few instances of dick butterflies, lol). The problem is that I don't know if I am actually considered "gay" because I have noticed (in my quest to learn more about sexuality and gender) that I am attracted to some transmen (FTM). I'm not really ashamed of it. I am totally ok with it all. I'm just concerned what this makes me, not to mention how everyone around me would feel about it on top of my already being "influenced by the devil" *sigh*...
So there is no doubt in my mind that I like guys (i am a guy) and I'm ok with that. I am also ok with the term "gay" if I really belong in that category, I just rather not label myself because I honestly believe that labels restrict individuality to a point. I have never experienced any sexual attraction to any women (besides a few instances of dick butterflies, lol). The problem is that I don't know if I am actually considered "gay" because I have noticed (in my quest to learn more about sexuality and gender) that I am attracted to some transmen (FTM). I'm not really ashamed of it. I am totally ok with it all. I'm just concerned what this makes me, not to mention how everyone around me would feel about it on top of my already being "influenced by the devil" *sigh*...