03-03-2015, 08:08 PM
I know it's one of these topics that are repeatedly showing there but Ive gotta ask you about some advice/
First of all Id like to say that im from Poland and Im sorry for every gramma mistake I will make.
So there goes the situation I'm in:
Ive been with my BF for 2 years. My parents know that we are together and they kind of accept it but we have never spoken about it loudly, cause my sexuality is something we dont talk about. Thought they know about me for 4 years already. But let's go with the topic.
Recently few uncomfortable situations are happening.
1. He is rude to me as hell when we are with MY friends, he hasnt got his, so he always hangs out with me and my mates (they know about us for like 2 weeks). For example he treats me like a shit when we are with 'em and everyone notices it but noone knows how to act (i warned him that one more time and im going to punch him so hard that he wont be able to speak ever again). H
2. He fears to touch me, hold my hand, hug me when we are with my mates despite the fact that earlier he did it and now he doesnt want. I asked him why but his responses were always that I did it in a wrong place or that he didnt fancy doing it.
These mates ive got now are the ones i met at my university and we really got close to each other so Ive decided to tell them about myself and him. It's rather impossible that he got angry at me cause I told 'em, cause my best friend knows about us, everyone in the High School were aware that we are a couple and he never had any problem with that.
3. He moved to student's house in order to live closer to me (before he was living in a village 25 km away, now he's living like 100 metres from my home). Im visiting him everyday but sometimes he uses some stupid excuse to make me leave earlier and today I discovered something really frustrating - his roommate is also gay... And I had no chance to meet him personally cause he was always out when I was in his room.
It made me thinking if he wasnt lying to his roommate that he is a single and he doesnt want us to meet each other. I cant ask him personally "HEY ARE U CHEATING ON ME?" cause if I did he would totally say fuck u and wouldnt speak to me for week or even longer, as he usally did when i said something that wasnt "at place".
4. The thing is that im not sure if I love him anymore, he has changed so much since last 2 months that I dont recognise the guy I loved in him anymore... To be honest even sex became rather boring cause he just lay there and ive got to BEG to have it..
Since the summer I have taken care of my body and from slim pussy I became more manly in order to make him want me more, much more than he did before. But it seems to me like all the effort I put into it was for nothing..
I was thinking about breaking up, even talked about it to one of my friends.. But u know guys, 2 years are quite a long time and I dont know what shall I do. Also i gotta add that if we eventually have broken up he would cry just as he did when after being together 6 months he had small romance (kissed other guy while his parents were gone) and told me about it and begged me not to leave him. Coming back to my friend, she told me that Ill always have them and they will support me as much as they can. And also my BF has only me and my mates so he would be left alone ;/ I really dunno what to do, its killing me inside, on my lectures I cant focus on anything but it.. Help me please with making my final decision.. If u need more details to help me, ask me in comments and im going to tell you
By the way, I was searching for some polish gay forum but there is only 1 and it sucks (mostly all topics there was about sex) so I decided to ask there by finding this forum in google..
First of all Id like to say that im from Poland and Im sorry for every gramma mistake I will make.
So there goes the situation I'm in:
Ive been with my BF for 2 years. My parents know that we are together and they kind of accept it but we have never spoken about it loudly, cause my sexuality is something we dont talk about. Thought they know about me for 4 years already. But let's go with the topic.
Recently few uncomfortable situations are happening.
1. He is rude to me as hell when we are with MY friends, he hasnt got his, so he always hangs out with me and my mates (they know about us for like 2 weeks). For example he treats me like a shit when we are with 'em and everyone notices it but noone knows how to act (i warned him that one more time and im going to punch him so hard that he wont be able to speak ever again). H
2. He fears to touch me, hold my hand, hug me when we are with my mates despite the fact that earlier he did it and now he doesnt want. I asked him why but his responses were always that I did it in a wrong place or that he didnt fancy doing it.
These mates ive got now are the ones i met at my university and we really got close to each other so Ive decided to tell them about myself and him. It's rather impossible that he got angry at me cause I told 'em, cause my best friend knows about us, everyone in the High School were aware that we are a couple and he never had any problem with that.
3. He moved to student's house in order to live closer to me (before he was living in a village 25 km away, now he's living like 100 metres from my home). Im visiting him everyday but sometimes he uses some stupid excuse to make me leave earlier and today I discovered something really frustrating - his roommate is also gay... And I had no chance to meet him personally cause he was always out when I was in his room.
It made me thinking if he wasnt lying to his roommate that he is a single and he doesnt want us to meet each other. I cant ask him personally "HEY ARE U CHEATING ON ME?" cause if I did he would totally say fuck u and wouldnt speak to me for week or even longer, as he usally did when i said something that wasnt "at place".
4. The thing is that im not sure if I love him anymore, he has changed so much since last 2 months that I dont recognise the guy I loved in him anymore... To be honest even sex became rather boring cause he just lay there and ive got to BEG to have it..
Since the summer I have taken care of my body and from slim pussy I became more manly in order to make him want me more, much more than he did before. But it seems to me like all the effort I put into it was for nothing..
I was thinking about breaking up, even talked about it to one of my friends.. But u know guys, 2 years are quite a long time and I dont know what shall I do. Also i gotta add that if we eventually have broken up he would cry just as he did when after being together 6 months he had small romance (kissed other guy while his parents were gone) and told me about it and begged me not to leave him. Coming back to my friend, she told me that Ill always have them and they will support me as much as they can. And also my BF has only me and my mates so he would be left alone ;/ I really dunno what to do, its killing me inside, on my lectures I cant focus on anything but it.. Help me please with making my final decision.. If u need more details to help me, ask me in comments and im going to tell you
By the way, I was searching for some polish gay forum but there is only 1 and it sucks (mostly all topics there was about sex) so I decided to ask there by finding this forum in google..