I hate my dad ...

[verysimple]

This person just won't leave me the hell alone. Unfortunately, because of my country's situation I cannot afford to live on my own cuz jobs here pay less than what you could afford to pay for rent. So, I am forced to live with my family... He still keeps using religion as an excuse for his behavior towards me and my mother is following his steps and always taking his side. Not that I don't ignore and just seem so careless anymore but nothing works. He would get very angry and abusive if I made a simple mistake like not answering the phone or not being able to help him around the house "Cuz they're doing some construction around the house" and I'm just too busy for that.. They won't get it nor do they listen. They just keep saying that God will punish me for being such an ungrateful, disobedient son and that I am an abusive bastard! They keep convincing me that I won't live a happy life because I don't please them the way they want (Which is, me becoming a slave to them) Such kids. They literally act like children... Whether I talk back, or keep quiet or try to communicate it is always my fault. The best I can do is, just stay out of their sight. Those sick pigs disgust me and I just can't wait to get away and start over. Just, start all over again. It's that they don't recognize emotional abuse because they are too shallow, superficial and materialistic. They always make me feel bad about myself. Always try to make me want to hate myself. Always try to bring my self-respect and self esteem down. It's always about them but not me. My mom sides with that asshole cuz he is just helping her with her house and she's happy with it. Good for her, soon enough they'll be back to Pickering and hating each other again... Me, I no longer give a shit if they live or die. I just want out! Lately, he's been threatening to use a knife on me, and he's been doing it a lot... This man could kill me. I hate to strike you guys as vulnerable but this is the only place where I am understood, free and not judged. Somewhere I can just vent and I can use all the support I can have because I really need it.

[ceez]

I'm so sorry to hear that, do you have an escape plan yet or anyone else you can stay with?

[verysimple]

I'm so sorry to hear that, do you have an escape plan yet or anyone else you can stay with?

I found a way to go to france after I graduate which is in two years.. I just hope it works. Figures crossed!

[ceez]

that's good, I would still find somewhere else to stay until then. I'm sure the years will fly by if you keep busy but I don't like that your father is threatening with violence.

[SilverBullet]

You can always do what we in america do.
Take out a rather large life insurance policy on them and.... j/k
Threatening you with a knife is a big deal
Maybe you could live with a friend? Or make some friends and maybe a bf then you could live with them?
I would seriously talk to some local store owners or something if they are hiring and see if they perhaps could shelter/feed you rather than pay?
worrying about being knifed by your dad is a bit much... I would stop calling him your father/dad and start calling him the sperm donor or something he sounds like apiece of ****.

[Cuddly]

If you take away the whole knife threatening thing, then it sounds like the ordinary "time to move out" period alot of 17-999 year olds go through.
If you can't find a way to move out just yet, then you will have to suck it up for a while longer. Two years will fly by. Just hang in there and use us for venting.

[CarGuy65]

WOW onTheBeach you must be new here. If you look back at verysimple's past post you may get a better understanding of what he has been through and is currently going through. You may want to do some research before you fire back with a comment like that!

Verysimple, I have kept up with your post and I feel for you. Just hang in there until a better situation comes along. I hope it wont take long. You are here with a fantastic group of people that will give you support when you need it. Vent away!!

[wayward]

I certainly disagree with [MENTION=21814]OnTheBeach[/MENTION] . Pay him no mind. To possess a mind that desires freedom is dangerous for a man in your environment. It is no job of yours to appease abusive progenitors. Take care. The dominant ideas defended by religion in your nation are archaic. [MENTION=19807]SilverBullet[/MENTION] had a good idea of seeking shelter from a merchant. I wish you safety [MENTION=21000]verysimple[/MENTION] . Guard your integrity. In my opinion it is a person's most valuable possession. Stay strong in whatever you believe and do well to not let others define you, or shrink the measure of your worth. That you understand all that you do, and that you are brave enough to make plans and seek help is valuable indeed. I hope your instincts serve you well. Listen to your own heart and try to remain healthy and unharmed if at all possible. If I can be of any help to you I will try. If you need a friend I would be him.

[LONDONER]

Sounds like your father totally understands you. If you just want to sit on your lazy ass and do nothing --- I'd kick you out of the house. You're a very ungrateful person.

You are new here and your remark was totally uncalled for. I hope you have it in you to apologise.

[IanSaysHi]

I hope the next two years go quickly for you. I know it's hard but try to spend as much time away from home (friends, studying, work) and this situation (especially knife threats!).